Erin (La Cidiana)
24 February 2012 @ 01:19 am
So today I had a nice night's rest (for once) and then replied to some LoM/DW crossover-related comments and was basically like "Yeah, I love Sam/Gene even more than Doctor/Master now! Pretty crazy, huh?" And then my brain apparently was like "OH NO YOU DIN'T" because then took a shower and went back to my bed and got sleepy and napped for one single hour and I had one of the most vivid fucking dreams I have ever experienced.

And it was Doctor/Master. With me as the Doctor.


And then, suddenly --

I drifted awake.

And I was like.

That. Was. Magnificent.

And then I wrote all that up before I forgot and also scribbled down some notes in a nearby notebook, and then I glanced at them later and I was like "GEE RANDOM DOCTOR WHO DREAM SCRIBBLINGS, THIS SURE REMINDS ME OF......... ............OH MY GOD I AM THE DOCTOR."

No, seriously, I might have to write this fic. Like. Scene-for-scene. Just because... brain, what even. and talk about method writing the Doctor's POV jesus christ

and apparently this was so noteworthy that I am properly updating my journal for the first time in a million years kjahs
music: Pendulum - 9000 Miles
mood: shocked
Erin (La Cidiana)
29 September 2009 @ 09:59 am
So I stayed up late last night studying for my Latin American History quiz, trying to figure out how the hell the Common Application deals with letters of rec, and then trying to fall asleep pondering particular Heroes plotlines, and I think my anxieties conspired to make me have fitful dreams of Sylar trying to take over Venezuela.

Also post-shower my stomach is like giving me serious issues whenever I move ugh FUCK YOU, STRESS. At least the LMU advisor got back to me; forms are the way to go after all wooooo. I think I'll apply to Chapman too because what the hell they're also on the Common Application and are fairly nearby and apparently have good writing programs.

Also, sorry to people waiting on posts from me! D8 Will try to work on that during my break between classes today though now I need to track down instructors for those evaluations and jdfksajdhkf uuuugh
mood: stressed
music: Vienna Teng - White Light
Erin (La Cidiana)
04 May 2009 @ 03:21 am
I... really should sleep, but I suddenly became curious about all these documents I'd opened and jotted down haphazard dream notes into that were scattered throughout my computer. I ended up collecting them all into one document and.... jesus christ MY SUBCONSCIOUS IS SO FUCKING FIXATED ON FANDOM AGKADKA

Some dreams not included here I actually did post about right as I had them, but anyway. Some of these I like... don't even remember skjhfkasd. All of these were written RIGHT as I woke up, which is why there's no punctuation or coherency to speak of.

Also, my subconscious gave me like ten million (no seriously, like, seven in one month) Nathan dreams back before I even declared him my favorite character in the show. Clearly, it knows me better than I do. :(


Dream Notes. )

I remember in that last dream, I kept on trying to CALL COURT AND TELL HER OMG OMG I MET MILOOOOOOO but I kept on getting DISTRACTED and then I woke up and was like OMG OMG I HAVE TO TELL HER I.... had a dream where I met Milo. God dammit.

...Also, now that I'm looking at these dreams, THERE IS A SERIOUS TREND OF DISNEY MOVIES IN THERE. What.

Anyway, where the hell did my weekend goooo? ;; I was supposed to get shit done and then all of a sudden... it was over. What the hell. I think I'm going to try to get out of the house to do my work next weekend; otherwise I just... lose track of time ugh.

Also, I just realized I'm out of my meds. T_T WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN ON SUNDAYS and leaves me med-less on Mondays, my busiest day ugh. Now I need to somehow... okay, good, they can refill it without any doctor shenanigans ahfkas PHEW BECAUSE THIS WEEK I NEED 'EM

Now I need to make sure I get up at 8 and I've already wasted half my night jhsfdka WHATEVER at least it'll cause me to fall asleep early tomorrow.

....I really hope I can get myself to do my Anthro reading in time for my final ugh. jfkfsasadg

and apps apps apps APPS ;_;

...Also, about a quarter of the time I try to type "heroes" into my icon finder, it comes out as "herpes." COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT.
music: Lights Out Asia - Psiu! Puxa!
mood: anxious
Erin (La Cidiana)
01 April 2009 @ 08:25 pm
So I come home from my midterm to take a nap. I do manage to nap for a couple of hours, and in those couple of hours, I start having vague traces of one of those dreams you don't really want to wake up from, so when I do start waking up again, I decide to go back to sleep. It had something to do with like some dude and the government finding this other planet way out in space but then if you arrange the photos somehow it turns out OMG THE PLANET IS ACTUALLY CLOAKED JUST NEXT TO US or something and...I don't even know.

.........I THEN PROCEED TO HAVE LIKE....... THIS FUCKING EPIC, NATHAN-CENTRIC DREAM THAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE THE SEASON FINALE FOR HEROES. I HAVEN'T EVEN BEEN WATCHING HEROES. WHAT. And it involves like Nathan and Peter and EVIL INVADING ALIENS SOMEHOW WHAT THE HELL and then like Nathan getting put in a really heartbreaking I-am-going-to-die, self-sacrificing position which I suspect was entirely inspired in my subconscious by GEORGE MASON YEAH MINA KNOW'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT especially since apparently Nathan was flying a spaceship or something which then docked with where the other Heroes characters were what the hell self, how does your brain manage this. And then Nathan gives some pre-recorded briefing tape where he is giving COUGHS OF DEATH and so forth.

And then at the very end he was having this really cliché and teary but genuinely very sad yeah-let-us-imply-in-many-terms-I-am-going-to-die conversation with Wilson except then I was like .......WAITWTFWILSON? And that is what caused me to wake up.

The end. Thank you, brain. I love how you package all my unending love and terrible fears and secret longing into one dream. (Oh, and Wilson too.) FFFFFFFFFFUCK YOOOUUUUUU repressed desires auuuuuuuuggggGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH
music: Emancipator - Lionheart
mood: retardedly pumped
Erin (La Cidiana)
13 September 2008 @ 12:43 pm

«The ‡RP Concrit‡ Meme»

I'M TRYING TO RESPOND TO OTHER PEOPLES' IN TURN. D: Seriously, I'd love some concrit to make sure I don't make (or continue to make) any dumb RP choices.... aside from my generally being too slow. Since I know that already. D8 I'LL RESPOND THIS TIME, I SWEAR. ;;

In other news, I had two dreams night before last and three dreams last night. Out of those five, four involved Heroes and three involved Nathan. MY BRAIN IS CLEARLY GETTING DESPERATE HERE especially since it was doing crossovers of like Disneyland and Heroes and MGS4 and Zelda and STAR FOX(??). It made Nathan the main star of my dream's version of the end of MGS4. Yeah, I dunno. GET OUT OF MY MIIIIIIIIIND, NATHAN HALP srsly. ;; I just have to keep focusing on how almost all my other shows are back this coming week YESSSS. House, Supernatural, Sunny... I WON'T GET HUNG UP ON YOU JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE PURPOSELY SPOILING THINGS TO GET ME EXCITED, HEROES. >:[

Now to...
√ do posts for [ profile] damned
• clean room
• do reading for school
mood: dorky
music: Jared Hudson - Metal Gear May Cry (Remastered) (OCRemix)
Erin (La Cidiana)
07 June 2008 @ 05:06 pm
Stolen from [ profile] ainasiriel:

You are in a mall when the zombies attack. You have:
1. one weapon.
2. one song blasting on the speakers.
3. one famous person to fight alongside you.


INVINCIBLE = ME. Reassures me a little, given that my dream last night was a weird mix of The Office's Pretzel Day and hiding from zombies. D:
mood: silly
music: Black Sabbath - Iron Man
Erin (La Cidiana)
02 May 2008 @ 01:09 pm
I had a dream last night that involved a giant flood, the Simpsons, Solid Snake, arcade games, and Jim Profit.

I woke up for a bit and when I went back to sleep, I had a dream that involved a weirdo school, Ganondorf, spaceships, and Transformers.


In other news, watched the newest episodes of Supernatural with Max last night! \o/ On the way to my house, we decided we wanted Red Mango (this Pinkberry's ripoff near my house, but hey, if it's near my house...) and so we went. We ordered--one medium for her, and three smalls for me and my family--and as she was ordering, the machine refused to take her debit card. Didn't take her credit card either. I was kinda like "wtf?" since I was pretty sure she had a bunch of money in her account from her last job, but I was like "Hey, Max, it's cool, I'll cover you." So I go up to the cashier and give them my Amex card, and IT DOESN'T WORK EITHER. So at that point, the staff people realized it was an issue with their machine rather than an issue with our cards, so they were like "we can only take cash right now..." and Max and I were like "we only have like... seven bucks. D:" So they were like "...OKAY, YOU CAN JUST TAKE THEM." And we were like "WHAT REALLY???"

So we got 17 bucks worth of desserts. For free.

Truly SWEET.

Anyway, we watched the Spn episodes (last week's and this week's), and they were of course awesome! We then watched Profit, which Max wtfed at and wanted to watch more of. So we did. And then I took her home.

Also, a couple of days ago, Jenny and I went to Andrew's (who'd just gotten his Instrument Rating, yay!) and we played Simpsons Monopoly. It was extremely fun and I won. 8D

music: Placebo - Running Up That Hill
mood: chipper
Erin (La Cidiana)
29 April 2008 @ 09:23 pm
I feel so very, very warm and fuzzy after reading the comments on that RP compliments meme. SO GLAD YOU GUYS LOVE OUR BABY AS MUCH AS WE DO. ;_; <3333

Also glad that people generally seem to like the new userinfo. Gonna go read me some apps now, woo! ...Or Anthro reading, whichever seems more important at the time. >_>;

Also, Re: English class: the original versions of Little Red Riding Hood are so pornographic, jesus. D: SUPERNATURAL, YOU LIED TO ME. The Grimms version was actually the least disturbing. (Aside from the scissors part. When I read that part of the short stories, I could not get Dean out of my head. :|)

ORITE AND HOUSE YESTERDAY. (YESTERDAY, WTF???) I cannot believe how gay this season is. Gaygaygaygaygay. Like, seriously, WHUT HOUSE. I love how Wilson just rolls with it, all like "why, yes, it's perfectly normal for House to be this possessive over my fine ass" and yes, I actually like Amber. :3

Also, if House continues to be at 9PM on Mondays next September, I MIGHT HAVE TO SMACK A BITCH AND I THINK YOU KNOW WHY.

And I'm STIIIIILLLLLLL INNNNN A DREEEEAAAAMMMM where House was trying to catch Dexter and expose him as a serial killer, and then the climactic scene ended up being an inquisition on Dexter that turned into a surprise birthday party. And he had a lime-colored shirt on. And this Starbucks barista looked like Mohinder.
music: Metal Gear Solid 3 - Snake Eater (Abstracted Camouflage Mix)
Erin (La Cidiana)
01 February 2008 @ 03:11 pm
Ganked from [ profile] burningvigor and whoever else I saw use it on my flist. <3

1) Make a list of 10 characters.
2) Assign each character a number.
3) Without telling anyone who's on the list or the character's assigned number, get questions from your flist about what they'd like to know about them.
IE: "If 3 and 4 were trapped in a cave together with only a blanket and a toothpick, what would they do?" (The more random the better!)
4) Post the answers and who was who on the list.


Also, I had a fucking CREEPY-COOL really sad dream last night. It was like... a Heroes/House crossover in a Spn universe (AND SOMEHOW, NATHAN AND DEAN WERE NOWHERE TO BE FOUND IN IT WTF though Matt was like the main dude. <333)

Me telling Court about it. )
mood: cheerful
music: Electric Light Orchestra - Mr. Blue Sky
Erin (La Cidiana)
29 January 2008 @ 10:19 pm
Yaaaay, AN ACTUAL NEW EPISODE OF SOMETHING TONIGHT (AKA HOUSE). <333 So nice to see House/Wilson gayness again. AND SUPERNATURAL ON THURSDAY. Will be so nice to see Sam&Dean brotherliness again. <333

Also, had a WEIRDASS DREAM last night. Involved me, Court, Jenny, a weirdo hotel, a weirdo villain, time-traveling, a shoe store, my brother, surrealistic Guitar Hero, and Dexter.

Also, my memory card's file of Guitar Hero III got corrupted and we had to restart our file. DDD: WTFERY. Oh well; it's kind of fun doing everything over except that I have to do co-op mode again to unlock the co-op songs. D: NOES.

Also, I want to open a student account to avoid the $8 monthly fee I always end up paying, but that involves having $100 lying around to start a new account. I STILL NEED A JOB.

Also, I should post as Scar before I sleep because srsly. SORRY, FAM & FEY.
mood: tired
Erin (La Cidiana)
29 November 2007 @ 05:08 am
7000+ WORDS ON DJINNFIC AND 2000+ ON VAMPIRE!DEAN. WOOO. Granted that that's including extra brainstorming/cut out bits that I plan to include later, but since they will be incorporated in eventually, I COUNT THEM AS WORDS? In any case, I was right: It's nice to take a break on Vampire!Dean and go to DjinnFic and vice versa. 8D TWO PROJECTS ARE BETTER THAN ONE? KEEPS DEM CREATIVE JUICES FLOWIN'.


RP stuff and poll results! )

AND TODAY. Today. I went to SMC with my mom and we both bitched at the people in the admissions office about how their enrollment site totally screwed me over, so now what we have to do is pay the fee so I can sign up for my classes, then I have to contact the professors of the classes I was supposedly enrolled in and have them verify to the admissions office that I was never in those classes so I can get a reimbursement and have the classes struck from my record. HOPEFULLY, THEY WILL RESPOND TO THE E-MAILS I WRITE TOMORROW. And if not, I will e-mail again. >:[

Then we had yummy Gilbert's and had just enough cash to pay for all of it. 8D

The inside of my left ear is hurting randomly, wtf. ;; This does not bode well, as my right ear is the one that occasionally gets a weird and persistent high-pitched ring in it. WHAT HAVE I DONE TO MYSELF. At least I'm not as bad as Maxine, who plays her music on her headphones so loud that I can hear it from the other room at her house.

SPEAKING OF YOUNG PEOPLE DESTROYING THEIR EAR DRUMS. ...Man, this song is pornographic. But cool. <3 THANKS FOR THE MUSIK, [ profile] tinted_glass! And I need to send you the stuff too, [ profile] loreamara. 8D

music: IAMX - Your Joy is My Low
mood: creative
Erin (La Cidiana)
28 November 2007 @ 03:59 am
Went to my appointment with the Learning Disabilities college counselor today and got the ball rolling for going to SMC, yaaay. Because of some fuckup from a couple of semesters ago, though, they're telling me I owe them 134 bucks for classes I didn't take because back then it told me I'd lost my spot and couldn't take them because I hadn't paid for them. (WTF I KNOW)

Anyway, I can't enroll in any new classes until that's taken care of, so my mom and I are gonna go tomorrow to clear that up and also make sure those classes don't show up as F's on my transcript or anything. But yeah--I know what I need to do, so I'll be enrolling for the spring and I'm planning on taking a time-management/organizational skills workshop along with those classes so I don't fall flat on my face like I always do. DX

Also, I had the most simultaneously exciting and EMBARRASSING Heroes dream last night. In fact, it was so exciting that it PHYSICALLY WOKE ME UP an hour before I needed to and I couldn't fall back asleep. D: WHICH MAKES IT EVEN MORE EMBARRASSING THAN IT WAS ALREADY


ALSO, the time has come for the ultimatum. It's been a month and I need to decide already and get my ass in RP gear.

[Poll #1096542]


Yes, you heard me.

The upsides and downsides of that proposal and my general rationale. )


Edit: Oh, yeah, and I'm keeping Cid no matter what. <3
mood: contemplative
music: Wolf's Rain - Tell Me What the Rain Knows
Erin (La Cidiana)
20 November 2007 @ 05:11 am

So I have jury duty today at 7:45 AM downtown, so I decided I'd be up by 6 and be out the door by 6:30 to make sure I got downtown early enough to figure out what the hell I was doing. So I got to sleep around 11:30 PM last night.

...3:30 AM I wake up from HEROES DREAMS GODAMMIT COURT and I CANNOT FALL ASLEEP AGAIN. GRARRGGHH. Around 5 AM I gave up and now I'm just... doing stuff before I get ready. D:

In other news, I've gotten my MOM properly hooked on Supernatural. Since she got back from her trip, she's been all "HEY LET'S WATCH SUPERNATURAL" and "well, your little cousins are coming over, but that means WE CAN'T WATCH SUPERNATURAL" and SO ON AND SO FORTH. I'm really happy she's enthusiastic enough about it to make commentary like--"Sam and those headaches POOR THING" and "DEAN IS SO SWEET TO HIM" and "Sam is SMART."

I've got Maxine hooked too (EVEN THOUGH SHE'S MORE TERRIFIED OF IT EVEN THAN I AM). Hopefully we can get together soon and marathon through another chunk of s2. >:] EEE WINCHESTERS <333

Also, I still want to do an indulgent Dean!vampire fic even if Gordon stole my thunder the other day. D: MORE DETAILS, AT LEAST?
music: Styx - Renegade
mood: awake
Erin (La Cidiana)
15 November 2007 @ 02:49 am
RP and character dropping contemplation/ramble. )

In other news, yeah, Court got me into NATHAN Heroes bad, though I also blame that crossover dream and those other THREE NATHAN-RELATED DREAMS how embarrassing /)_(\ I had for getting me all STOKED FOR WRITING IT, whereas before I was a totally casual fan. BUT I AM STILL LOYAL TO WINCHESTERS for they are beautiful IN MANY WAYS annnnnnd right now I really need to work on my AU fic (6000+ WORDS, BITCHES) but I'm also so, so tempted to start working on an indulgent Vampire!Dean fic I wanna do, since I've been looking for fics of that persuasion and I'll I've found is over-the-top/unrealistic Wincest for it. D:

ANYWAY. Man. New fandoms, and WHY AM I ALL HOMING IN ON BROTHERLY BROTHERS ALL OF A SUDDEN? Usually I'm shipping the HELL out of series and right now I'm... NOT SHIPPING ANYTHING AT ALL? I'm kinda glad, though, since I already feel bad for leaving the fandom of my most cherished OTP of all the ages, and this way HUGHES AND ROY HAVE NO ROMANTIC COMPETITION IN MY HEART <3

Also, I feel kind of lame that I'm getting into these shows so late in the game, feel kind of POSER-ISH? I dunno. BUT I LOVE THEM, REALLY, I DO. Man, Supernatural my next fandom. TOTALLY DID NOT SEE THAT COMING. Also, I still need to make a big entry of my in-depth... er... SELF-REFLECTION of how I got into the two shows and what I love about them.

....I think way too hard about these things. ANYWAY. Uh. It's weird to be into a live-action series. WEIRD BUT COOL. (I feel all awkward looking at pictures of the actors out of character. I DUNNO.)
mood: contemplative
music: Gyakuten Meets Orchestra - Gyakuten Saiban 3 Epilogue
Erin (La Cidiana)
07 November 2007 @ 02:34 pm
Oh my goddddddddddd I had such a fucking AMAZING BADASS DREAM LAST NIGHT

To save you all from EXCITED HEROES/SUPERNATURAL CAPS AHHHHH. Minor spoilers, but not much.. )

music: Switchfoot - Learning to Breathe
mood: ecstatic
Erin (La Cidiana)
25 September 2007 @ 05:51 pm
Man, haven't updated in a while, huh? Well, HERE WE GO.

I had some pretty EPIC fandom dreams last month or so, including:


ALSO. THIS GUY NEEDS A NAME. I have a plot, background, personality and everything figured out for him, but NO NAME. I've been debating between like... Alec, Matt, and Marc, and someone said maybe Jacob, but I'd be open to any other suggestions. He's a good-natured detective with a wife back home trying to quit smoking and on this uh... heavily-shrouded case thing. In a post-apocalyptic underground world. He also of course has a sekrit tragic past, but that would be a SPOILER. (Ohgoditallsoundsocliche) PLZ TO BE HELPING ME, I DREW THIS DOODLE ESPECIALLY FOR YOU, F-LIST and I need help since I'm going to be trying out NaNo this year and this guy is a main character in the original story I wanna work on. 8D;



Oh, and also, I've been doing figure drawing on Sunday and we've read pretty much ALL THE APPS WOOO just need to send out the last e-mails now.
mood: dorky
music: Depeche Mode - Suffer Well
Erin (La Cidiana)
13 June 2007 @ 04:48 pm

I had one of my frequent zombie nightmares LAST NIGHT. T____T

Ughdjkhaskfd I am so not going outside today. ::HIDES UNDER BED.::

In case any of you didn't know already, zombies and the idea of a zombie apocalypse are like... my greatest fear. Ever. .___.;;; No, seriously, I don't dream often, but whenever I have a nightmare? IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT ZOMBIES. T___T I HAVE LIVED THROUGH MORE ZOMBIE APOCALYPSES THAN I CAN COUNT BY NOW AJHSDG AUGH.