Erin (La Cidiana)
06 November 2007 @ 02:14 pm
Having second thoughts about the whole animation thing.

After a couple of years, I don't think I've improved enough nor am motivated enough to realistically have a shot at getting into CalArts at any time soon, and meanwhile, I feel like I've been much more driven to write. (Then again, it could just be I want to write when I should be drawing, and I'll want to draw when I should be writing, etc, but who knows with these things.)

So, as I sit here and contemplate the courses I want to build credits towards to tell the SMC counselor on Thursday, I wonder if I should pursue a career for writing for screen and television instead. Being in the One-Hour Drama class was intimidating due to my lack of experience as compared to everyone else, but I'm also pretty damn sure I had one of the best ideas for an episode in there, and I feel like I have a knack for that kind of thing--coming up with ideas and having a solid grasp on characterization and keeping with the tone of a show, which is something that a surprising amount of seasoned adults in that class had a really hard time with.

There's another thing I have with writing that I don't have with drawing: Confidence in myself. Over the years, I've become pretty confident about my abilities as a writer, enough that I feel even the slightest chance of getting into a writer's program would be worth trying out, whereas with drawing, I tend to put myself down and have the lowest possible expectations of myself, since I feel I don't produce much. On a practical level, I also think I feel the effects of my ADD medication much more clearly in regards to my writing rather than my drawing, and that's something I really need to consider and put emphasis on for my morale's sake, even if I'm just imagining the difference.

So, what do you guys think, and what do you guys advise? If I'm going to be looking at schools for cinema rather than animation, I'm not so well-versed about which places are considered "good" in that field, though I know nearby USC had a well-known film program, and they seem to have a really exclusive undergraduate program specifically for writing for television, though it's so exclusive that it's uh... scary, if cool-looking. D: I also know USC has really good internship programs overall, which is important.

Anyway, at a proverbial crossroads here and I need some guidance from youz ppl. :X

mood: contemplative
music: Triumph - Fight the Good Fight