Erin (La Cidiana)
10 September 2010 @ 05:44 pm
wow I haven't posted to my LJ in ages but finally... FINALLY, I found something worth posting.


seriously I am. I expected. so bad but this. is just. .....sob.

UHHH IN OTHER NEWS. MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. UM. Basically, just started going back to school at LMU, still super into Heroes despite my soul hurting and also... sort of... GETTING INTO DOCTOR WHO? Been watching a ton of it and I kind of want to musebox Ten somewhere even though I feel like a supaposer. ;A; ALSO I recently reworked my resume and submitted it for an internship I was v. interested in and... THEY GOT BACK TO ME THE NEXT DAY? WOOHOO. I feel like an idiot since they called in the morning and I didn't wake up until... 4, so when I called them back the day was already over even though they'd said today would be ideal for an interview so. Sob. Hope I didn't just screw myself over. D8 They said they'd call back this week to schedule an interview for next week but. YOU NEVER KNOW. I'll definitely be following up on this. :|a ...and I also hope I didn't come off as an idiot over the phone. Ggghhhhdkfjs ...although on the bright side, the extra time will give me a chance to get some... decent interview clothes, of which I recently realized I have none. :|

ANYWAY YES. LJ POST. CAN CHOOSE A MOOD AGAIN. AND DO THINGS. AAAAA. Also, right, another update: apped BUZZ LIGHTYEAR to [ profile] damned. And got in. [ profile] nest will be my Woody. This is going to be glorious.

BUT FIRST I need to post to Elle&L and, you know, prove I can multitask and stuff. ...which I think time has proven I can't BUT YOU NEVER KNOW UNLESS YOU WORK ON IT. OR something. I am incoherent.

mood: optimistic
music: Rihanna - Shut Up and Drive
Erin (La Cidiana)
24 February 2010 @ 03:51 pm
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YOU LJ of course I go to clean out all my messages but my private ones and I accidentally delete all of them. ;; /HYPERVENTILATES. I AM AN ARCHIVE FIEND H-HOW CAN I LIVE WITHOUT THESE SJHDLKAZ At least I still have Spock and Wally discussions on [ profile] 7_to_midnight ;____;

So yeah, just lost the record of any private message I ever got or sent, lulz. YOU'D THINK THEY'D GIVE YOU AN "ARE YOU SURE" WINDOW OR... OR SOMETHING. GGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Also goddamn you people, I've been using Twitter a lot lately, and... THAT IS PROBABLY WHY I HAVE NOT BEEN UPDATING A LOT LATELY. ;; ALSO just found out about Formspring.Me so uh ASK AWAY IF YOU WANT IDK.

I really need to clean up dishes. And. Eat. I want to make a salami sandwich, but I think the ciabatta bread I got is rock-hard by now. ;; Baw.

OH ALSO many thanks once again to everyone who commented when I was feeling down, and I'm sorry I fail at replying but ijdhflskd ;_; ILU ALL I PROMISE ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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music: Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc.
mood: annoyed
Erin (La Cidiana)
25 January 2010 @ 03:32 am
Aaaaahhhhh shit shit shit I've been a total spacecase dumbass and now my gas and electric bills are overdue. Plus I have like. Negative money in my bank account (gj not canceling that extra account, dude) since as much as I try to tell my parents to give me an allowance that I can learn to budget, they just want me to use my credit cards??? HOW DOES THIS MAKE SENSE???

Anyway gotta deposit a check and get on that because those overdue letters are scary and isuayfashglak I feel like I've lately been worse than usual with like... idk, keeping track of shit. I mean just look at how I haven't even replied to comments in my last few entries, and how I haven't been checking my flist at all, and how I didn't start replying to Plot Post stuff until today even though I got Sylar in first... I just... I don't know. My doctor mentioned trying me out on some real ADD medication on top of the antidepressants, and as much as I hate blaming my failures on a lack of overmedication, I think that might be a good idea at this point, since I am... so incompetent with everything in my life. Ugh. I mean, it takes me like 2 hours or more to do a Sylar post when I'm not even distracting myself aside from answering a couple of Damned questions. How does... I don't even know. ;________; I don't want to screw myself over at this point in my life, man.

hfkashdfados;foew;as so yeah, anyway... sorry to people whose comments I haven't replied to in my last few entries. ._. I don't mean to be a neglectful douche – it just kind of... happens.

In other news, I have rediscovered my great and undying love for Liquid Snake. .....Oh right, and I started college at a four-year university THIS IS KIND OF IMPORTANT, ISN'T IT. My schedule was all kinds of fucked up, so that was pretty stressful to figure out, and now I'm gonna try to crash a class tomorrow so I don't have to take the equivalent at 9AM on Thursday and then not get off campus until my last class ends at 10PM 8( BUT IF I HAVE TO, IT WILL BE SO. it was kind of hilarious because of course I ended up having to do all this running around IN THE POURING RAIN THAT SOCAL HAS BEEN GETTING

But yeah, just... I know I've said it a 378983742 times before, but it's such a downer how I feel like I have such a hard time doing like a quarter of the shit that other people do. It's like I get super anxious about the simplest shit and eiwykashlsg

I guess on the subject of good news, I've been making active tactical strikes against my chronic nail-biting/general finger mutilation habit and actually having a bit of success, so... that's good, at least. :>

Also, thanks to a combination of [ profile] demyx's journaling and [ profile] continuum's chatting, whenever I listen to this song all I can picture is Zachary Quinto writhing around in goth glam with Rolo, Rick Rape!Milo, and Conan the Barbarian!Jared as backup dancers.

....Liquid can be that random-ass snake or something idk
mood: frustrated
music: Adam Lambert - For Your Entertainment
Erin (La Cidiana)
17 January 2010 @ 12:09 pm
Saw Daybreakers yesterday AND WAS EXTREMELY PLEASED. LIKE, MORE PLEASED THAN I EXPECTED TO BE. HANNAH, MAKE THAT RP. WE'LL GET YOU IN CHAT AND HELP YOU OVER POSSIBLE ORGANIZATION/MOD HURDLES. OR SOMETHING. it's not like Court and I have already discussed character dynamics for certain people in that setting or anything of course not And I would totally make photoshopped yellow eyes icons. :|

I would elaborate on why I liked it so much except that I'm running late to things and really need to get my ass in the shower. D8
mood: groggy
Erin (La Cidiana)
04 January 2010 @ 05:22 pm
PHEW, these last few of weeks have been pretty crazy. First, going up to Tahoe, then, family holiday stuff, then, hanging out for a few days with the usual gang, then, [ profile] nest coming into town and hanging out with [ profile] burningvigor and me and doing touristy things, then, adding that to hanging out with [ profile] wyna_hiros and [ profile] famira, and watching them go after each other in Super Mario Wii with psychopathic precision... crazytiems, man.

Then, yesterday, I drove Court back up to Santa Barbara and Jansen came with – WE HAD SOME TROUBLE FINDING OUR WAY due mainly to me rambling about fandom crap way too enthusiastically at the wheel, BUT IT WAS OKAY IN THE END. We got Freebirds and ice cream and then Jansen and I headed back to my place and we talked the night aawaaaayyyyy~ Then, I took her to the airport this morning. :(((( And went to get the H1N1 shot, per my mom's orders.

ANYWAY, now I am home and alone and chillaxing. SORRY FOR NOT REPLYING TO ANYONE ON THE SYLAR USERNAME THING and jesus christ do I need to do posts. I am assuaged only by the fact that it was his roomie who was distracting me. :>

Right, so I also found out [ profile] famira lives literally a mile from my house. GODDAMN YOU WE NEED TO MAKE THIS HANGING OUT THING REGULAR /SHAKEFIST

...Heroes tonight. I almost managed to block it out. /)_(\
mood: calm
music: Youko Kanno - Beauty is Within Us
Erin (La Cidiana)
15 December 2009 @ 03:19 am
Thanks to [ profile] laverinth's generosity, I have shiny new Sylar username opportunities. 8DDD


[Poll #1499268]

ALSO Tahoe is fun and there is like no one here and I think Court and I will now go and play KHII.
music: Suikoden III - Exceeding Love
mood: grateful
Erin (La Cidiana)
14 December 2009 @ 11:16 am
The How's My Driving? Meme

YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA HOW DESPERATE FOR CRIT I AM so please please please if there is anything – anything you think I should change or try to improve on, let me know. ;____; YOU CAN TELL ME ANON TOO. I WILL LISSTEENNN

Also, Court and I arrived at Lake Tahoe safely after a long, long drive! I planned on doing posts last night but the fact that my browsers wouldn't stop loading at me and that I nearly fell asleep with my cheek against a granite counter made me realize I should just go to bed. So I did. And I passed out. 8( GON DO POSTS NOW THOUGH. Wish the goddamn wireless worked outside of this tiny corner idhfgdks GODDAMN YOU COMPUTER
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mood: groggy
Erin (La Cidiana)
02 December 2009 @ 04:56 pm


good thing too, since I ended up being too lazy to apply anywhere else :<

Also, my nose has been running like hell and I had moar alarm fail today. Gj, self.

Now, will try to do POSTS. I am so goddamn amused by the grouping and circumstances of my current thread considering recent events in the show dafhaohfklas
music: Lady GaGa - Bad Romance
mood: accomplished
Erin (La Cidiana)
30 November 2009 @ 09:57 pm
4x12: The Fifth Stage )

ON A LIGHTER NOTE I totally got some amazing pointers in this episode for how to handle Sylar in certain [ profile] damned situations aisufhaksfhsahahahaaaaaaaa
mood: anxious
Erin (La Cidiana)
24 November 2009 @ 02:01 pm
..........................................STILL FREAKING OUT



music: forgot my headphones at home baaawww
mood: high
Erin (La Cidiana)
Brian Davis


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mood: blank
music: IAMX - Nightlife
Erin (La Cidiana)
02 November 2009 @ 04:59 pm
Went up to San Francisco this weekend with Andrew and Court! We went to Yaoicon (something we've wanted to do for what? six years now?) and hung out with Sabrina and had a blast. :D Also met up with [ profile] loreamara, [ profile] zalia, and [ profile] wyna_hiros. Despite our TERRIBLE LUCK with food service, it was totally awesome. |D


Possible major spoilers for upcoming Heroes episodes. )

...Speaking of Jesus, I'm totally gonna cosplay Castiel. Court will be my Dean. Feeling out of place at Yaoicon totally gave us THE FEVER. ;;

And now apps. Lots. And lots. Of apps.
mood: content
music: Lifehouse - Somebody Else's Song
Erin (La Cidiana)
15 October 2009 @ 10:37 pm
Re: Sunny


Re: College App
I turned it in! 8D YAAAAAAAAAAAY. Now to figure out when the hell I'm supposed to hear back.

Re: Posting
Sorry I've been AWOL recently, [ profile] nest and [ profile] famira! Will be getting those posts out riiiiiiiiiight now. :3

Re: Arkham Asylum
Oh god IT IS SO BADASS. Nggghhhh must play more. ;;

Re: Self
Been feeling all physically funky today. ;; HOPE THIS ENDS BY TOMORROW NIGHT. Gonna go up and visit Court for the weekend. 8D
music: E.S. Posthumus - Mosane Pi
mood: under the weather
Erin (La Cidiana)
04 October 2009 @ 09:05 pm
I turned 22 today! Which means that I am like. Officially an adult jesus christ. Like, 21 is sort of there, but it's like you've just been initiated into it, but 22? 22??? Seriously I am a little freaked out if I think too hard about it. DDDD8 I DON'T WANNA GROW UP

Birthday Haul List
• XBox 360 (retroactively. :>)
• Supernatural S4 DVDs
• Batman: Arkham Asylum (WOO)
• Memento DVD
• signed Geordi poster (omg)
• a couple more DVDs as inside jokes ifjhaks
• sashimi ceramic set

Annnnnd I really wanna go play Arkham but I need to get some [ profile] damned modstuff done, not to mention posts. ;; skhfak maybe I'll do it anyway. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY GODDAMMIT.

mood: pensive
music: Placebo - Running Up That Hill
Erin (La Cidiana)
30 September 2009 @ 12:39 am
The How's My Driving? Meme

I would really appreciate it if anyone could give me some serious crit on Sylarface. ;; I know that he can be a very difficult character to portray without going overboard in either direction, and though I've been excited about the events he's been going through recently in [ profile] damned and the development they've been allowing me to do with him, I don't want to go down an S3 road and screw things up with too much emo and not enough evil. So... yeah. D8 Been really worried about that, and I'll gratefully take any comments, critiques, suggestions – anything! I'd love anything. <3333

mood: hopeful
Erin (La Cidiana)
29 September 2009 @ 09:59 am
So I stayed up late last night studying for my Latin American History quiz, trying to figure out how the hell the Common Application deals with letters of rec, and then trying to fall asleep pondering particular Heroes plotlines, and I think my anxieties conspired to make me have fitful dreams of Sylar trying to take over Venezuela.

Also post-shower my stomach is like giving me serious issues whenever I move ugh FUCK YOU, STRESS. At least the LMU advisor got back to me; forms are the way to go after all wooooo. I think I'll apply to Chapman too because what the hell they're also on the Common Application and are fairly nearby and apparently have good writing programs.

Also, sorry to people waiting on posts from me! D8 Will try to work on that during my break between classes today though now I need to track down instructors for those evaluations and jdfksajdhkf uuuugh
mood: stressed
music: Vienna Teng - White Light
Erin (La Cidiana)
28 September 2009 @ 05:36 am
I CHANGED MY LAYOUT. Well, not really – just the header and the colors. And the original layout isn't even my making so. Um. Yeah. I'm lazy.

But it does have Nathan on it, so. That's cool. :)

SPEAKING OF NATHAN OGOD HEROES TOMORROW. sldhaksjfasfasf Although some vague spoiler synopsis sentence has killed much of my expectation for What I Want More Than the Second Coming of Christ, I WILL STILL HOPE. BECAUSE I AM A MASOCHIST APPARENTLY AND THIS SHOW CONTINUES TO BE MY READILY ABUSIVE BOYFRIEND.

but no seriously i can't physically stop hoping for this ;; fuckfuckfuck

BUT EITHER WAY I am excited despite all reason and the fact that the rest of me is full of anxiety. D8 Baw, self. Baw.

In other news, holy shit I need to get letters of rec and the rest of my LMU application together and study/read for a Latin America History quiz on Tuesday auuuuggghh faaaaaaaaack.

...oh jesus I am so gay for it kfjhkforiuoaska
mood: anxious
music: Vienna Teng - White Light
Erin (La Cidiana)
07 September 2009 @ 08:25 pm
OH GOD I AM SO INSANE. I mean not as insane as, say, Lina, but still. ANYHOO, it was really nice to get that done. Next? Timeline. Oh lawd. D8

Seriously, though, I've been having so much fucking fun with Sylar; I feel like I've gotten a new lease on his potential character development in the RP. <333 I'm kinda tempted to get him a paid account so I can actually get the tables to look right instead of being stuck with the sponsored layout CSS screwing it up. NGGHH.

ALSO, want to take a moment to pimp a friend's fic that I've been heavily involved with in plotting and editing:

UNCONDITIONAL by [ profile] loreamara.
Part I. Part II. Part III. Hughes/Roy. Animeverse.

An A/U in which Roy manages to get revenge on Hughes' killer, but at the price of his own life. When both of them are then ripped from the grave by the woman who orchestrated their deaths, they end up spending years lost within their own new skins before circumstances force them to find themselves and face the consequences.

Guys, I fangirl this thing so ridiculously hard that you wouldn't even believe it. D8 SO EPIC. If you're a Hughes/Roy fan, I recommend checking it out like burning. ♥ ♥ ♥
mood: hopeful
music: Star Trek - Enterprising Young Men
Erin (La Cidiana)





Also – and this is pathetic, I know – but I'm so proud of myself for actually like... keeping up with his tags and not horribly dropping threads like I always do. ;; I mean, I'm still posting relatively slowly and I spend way too much time overthinking his posts but IT'S JUST A REALLY NICE FEELING to be so active, even if it's with just one character.

mood: giddy
music: Poe - Walk the Walk
Erin (La Cidiana)
07 August 2009 @ 08:38 am

I still can't believe the venue for the original showing was like about ten minutes from my house. :(


EDIT: YESSSS I GOT THEM and NOW (since it's standing room only jesus) to show up hours early at the venue! /has flashbacks to Heroes event ffffffff
music: Dexter - Photos
mood: exhausted