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[hughes]

Thursday. One step closer to the weekend.



Liquid Snake is so fucking psycho love.


I think I actually did well on my Bio test today! It seems that the further you progress in that class, the easier it gets. I GUESS it makes sense, considering that things get more applicable to common knowledge as you go along...

I really need to catch up with modern paleontology. Fuckin' love dinosaurs. <3

My grades came home. Ehh. I cried a little, but it's same old same old. Nothing's gonna change, and I've kinda realized it by now. I'm stuck in a vicious cycle that repeats itself each grading period and semester, and if I'm just going to keep being a failure, I'd might as well just accept it. I'm just happy I got an okay grade in Bio... I'd hate the egotistical, pretentious, condescendingly quiet bitch who is my history teacher even more except that I've already reserved that hate for myself. It's kind of disturbing how my parents don't even get mad or anything anymore, except for sort of giving me a pat on the shoulder and telling me that we'll "figure something out" eventually----meaning I'll keep on going through ADD-fixing programs and upping medication until I finallly stop fucking my life up. Personally, I doubt I ever will. I hate making medical excuses for stupidity and incompetence.

I was talking to Andrew, and I realized that maybe it is good that I'm a screw-up for Evan's sake. He's getting good grades, and at least he won't have to suffer the classic "can't-measure-up-to-older-sibling" complex. (Kinda like Liquid. Heh.) He already says he wishes he was as talented as I am. He was so sweet when he saw how upset I was. Just tried to make me feel better. I'm glad I prevented myself from exploding irrationally on him. <3

I should finish my LiqSnake thing already. Take my mind off things. Yeah. I'm in such a weird mood...

Comments

[burningvigor.livejournal.com]

:\ Hope you feel better, dear.

[evildrew.livejournal.com]

Now didn't we have a conversation about this? Just because you don't get the 4.5 doesn't mean you're a failure. You're talented Perkins, as much as you might not like to admit it, you have skills that will get you places. And you said it yourself, going to SMC isn't the worst thing in the world. I mean...it's really not. SO fine, people will make fun of you, and me, but we'll do it together! =D And then I'll get off to Embry-Riddle and you can go get a masters in literature or something. Oh, and if you become a famous novelist and ever seen a hobo with "Am an FAA certified pilot" on his sign, pick me up! I'LL WORK FOR YOU! Har...private jets Perkins...YOUR OWN PILOT! Seriously, you'll do fine! <3

::Gives more encouragement.::

[colortheory.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[elendraug.livejournal.com]

Congrats on your test! I know how that feels though, dude. I kept fucking FAILING every single math test flung at me, partly because my teacher's eccentric and partly because I just can't grasp mathematical crap half the time... It's so disheartening. Eventually something WILL work out though -- somehow I have a C in the class. Go figure.

Dinosaurs~~ <333

[hughes]

Thanks. ^^; Actually, I'm a pretty good test taker, and I understand most of my stuff. It's just turning in HOMEWORK that I have problems with... X_X;

I think I shall friend you. :O

[elendraug.livejournal.com]

Welcome~ Many of my teachers grade homework on effort, so. <3

:D Yaaay. <3 What colours would you like me to use to friend you back? XD

[liberty.livejournal.com]

Just want to say your mood theme owns.

[hughes]

YAY thanks. X3