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I... really should sleep, but I suddenly became curious about all these documents I'd opened and jotted down haphazard dream notes into that were scattered throughout my computer. I ended up collecting them all into one document and.... jesus christ MY SUBCONSCIOUS IS SO FUCKING FIXATED ON FANDOM AGKADKA
Some dreams not included here I actually did post about right as I had them, but anyway. Some of these I like... don't even remember skjhfkasd. All of these were written RIGHT as I woke up, which is why there's no punctuation or coherency to speak of.
Also, my subconscious gave me like ten million (no seriously, like, seven in one month) Nathan dreams back before I even declared him my favorite character in the show. Clearly, it knows me better than I do. :(
...Rereading these, I am JUST A LITTLE BIT CREEPED OUT THAT A WEIRDO THING IN ONE OF THESE DREAMS ENDED UP PRETTY DAMN PROPHETIC IN THE CONTEXT OF THE SERIES HOLY CRAP.
9/7/07
-dream: Wilson was cleaning a toilet or something? old stethoscope down it? House was in it in a... lobby of some sort?
- Steven Raudry in a military uniform, a big graduation thing?
- Was Spider-Man, came across Eddie, Eddie trying not to turn into Venom "NO, EDDIE" hand on shoulder, then he turned into Venom and he chased me.
9/12/08
• creepy Nathan with Heidi, weirdo blackness descending, yaddah yaddah – stuff before?
• looking for Nathan hunter and he's missing and expecting him to be creepy but then calling and GPSing and he's fairly normal but hunter-ish
9/13/08
dfhsj WEIRDO DREAM um first it was MGS4 (or Zelda? a new game after Twilight Princess? where you were only young Link?) and then MGS4 except it was all Heroes-related and yeah Nathan's face got all screwed up but on the opposite side and then somehow Peter had to sacrifice himself and give his power to Nathan and Nathan took his shape-shifting ability, or... SOMETHING (either that or Nathan died and Peter posed as him for the rest of his life)??? and future Peter came back from the future to bug Nathan and then Nathan revealed that or... something. And then I bragged that I'd finished MGS4 and how it ended up ALL CENTERING AROUND MY FAVORITE CHARACTER and I went to read the MGS4 manga except that then it had a bunch of FMA characters like Roy and Hughes and stuff wtfffff. AND THEN I was explaining the new Zelda game to someone and complaining there were barely any long range weapons and how I'd used aiming with the wiimote like once for the slingshot and thennn I was dreaming about STAR FOX and talking to Star Wolf's former commander and how he'd trained Star Wolf and he'd been named "Brad" or something except I was PETER I think? And I kept on screwing with the guy's collection of candy and chapstick shit wtf
THE OTHER PART OF THE DREAM was well first I was buying stuff for school at this weird textbook store (some... book and then an encyclopedia of the bible and I was READING THROUGH IT BITCH and I read up Daughters of Erin) but also movie theatre and someone else was impressing guys with their movie knowledge, or.... something and then there was this weird alley area I had to park in to see my grandparents who I just wanted to avoid and then me, Court, and Jenny were going to Disneyland late at night to see a special HEROES show but I was arguing that we should wait until the next day since it was already late and we shouldn't waste our money on the huge Disneyland fee if we weren't going to stay that long.
10/3/08
Dream about Peter and future!Peter and future!Peter stopping time and stuff , then future!Hiro and Ando at coffeeshop with past!Hiro and Ando, past!Hiro and future!Ando want to take a big picture somehow it turns into a picture of government people nearby including G.W. Bush and then it's an art museum thing talking about a new movie with security detail ending up in the jungle trying to survive and LEARNING ABOUT THEMSELVES
11/30/08
Sylar doing OOC stuff – killing who he's not supposed to kill? what? Barbara shows up, Tracy kills her, but then she gets brought back – they're both wearing yellow jacket things. And then Nathan goes to a SNOWCONE SHOP(?????) with her that's run with some woman he's slept with (who has brown hair) and there's awkwardness and the woman is all "OH YOU" but then makes a purple snowcone for her (with red & white snowcone rock candy things)
1/26/09
Okay dream dream dream hopefully I'm remembering enough of this UM okay so I remember being/seeing Dean continually wake up in different classrooms at different times of his life, including one time where he woke up and it was super hot and he was super old and then he went into a person's yard through some cellophane thing and it was way cold there (snow and stuff) even though the rest was super warm.... then, some... thing where every person had an animal spirit and another thing where each animal spirit would take them over if they spent too much time abusing their abilities and one dude who ended up looking like some Totoro character and this other kind of DDR/rhythm game where you had to hit the beats just on time and then also SOMETHING about flying and maybe Trellis I DUNNO? baaaaaaaaah general creepy aura about everything and then also some knife-wielding dude somewhat like that crocodile kid in Dexter and um um um big sweeping views of this old tan castle thingy for Supernatural and then Dean getting in trouble somehow – WATCHING MARIACHIS AT SOME CLUB but then moving towards the back of the club.... something about Indiana Jones? Or.... not... combining abilities to try to save people from something? something in my head having to do with the fanart from last night and us watching an episode and then seeing the promo and THAT turned into Dean moving through different classrooms in different points in time – also a middle-aged one he went to
1/27/09
some auditorium where the seats didn't make sense; moved up and was blocking someone's view with my head in front of the projection; then, in this thing where I moved back and forth through two Halloween worlds (like in Kingdom Hearts?) was trying to get away from little oval-shaped-head boy in the other one, then moved to "safe" one and Sam, Dean, John(?) and someone else were there, Dean was all dealing with some kind of pain; his eyes fade into black and then it's all like "OH NOES HE'S A DEMON" and then like some other shell of a demon eye comes over it that's blacker, then it moves to Sam and he's got the same fade-in black eyes except he's not a demon and then they talk telepathically and Dean is like "I can't let people (dad?) know I'm like this" and Sam is like "okay" so then they pretend to be all normal and make an excuse to leave and go through some... forest... corridor? And there were faint images of Wincest and I was like NO NO I WILL NOT STAND FOR THIS. :( And then it turned into some weird... video game-like... thing where Dean(?) (didn't look like Dean) was flying on some platform thing... like a flying/rail shooter but then I was like some Lion King Cub thing and I tried to jump from the platform to the end of the level, I missed and fell waaay wayyyy waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy down (like Star Wars pits) and landed on like the bottom of the level.
3/31/09
Some kind of lobster place that Jenny was going to and I was like SHIT I LOVE THIS PLACE I WANNA GO TOO and once we were there I saw this poster for this movie I loved – a kids movie that doesn't actually exist – that seemed kind of scary with this big dragon-head thing made out of black vines and stuff and this similarly built smaller black dragon that had once been something else but was turned into something different. Then, the little... character.... minidragon.... things from the movie appear and one of them turns into a big dragon thing, except it's white and different. Then, I go to the bathroom in the restaurant but it's really weird – one small room with a bunch of weird little dividers in between the baths/toilets and you can see above the sides pretty easily, then Christina came in and I was like uhhh out of here so I went and ended up at someone's house whose rooms appear and disappear since they're on a rolling conveyer belt thing
Also, dream where we were driving with Andrew to Disneyland in his probe (similar to other dream I had where we were somewhere and decided to go to Disneyland from a different freeway than usual) and his car like goes off the ledge and dies and lots of people go off the ledge and yeah
4/12/09
I dreamt I caught a fish like on my desk and it was flopping around and I felt really bad about letting it die and then my cat wouldn't eat it and I still felt really bad, so I tried putting it in a bucket of water but it had like this long gash through it's middle but then it was suddenly in a terrarium and it was this amphibious thing and I got it more water and it was sleeping but I was sure it was going to die and jkafsk I felt so horrible.
Then, I was watching TV and saw a bit of the new season of Heroes come on and I was like AHHHHhkasha and of course Nathan and Peter were in the scene and it they were around this brick-looking building in farmland and apparently it was where Nathan got married but neither of them remembered it....??? later it returned to that scene and showed that Bennet was also with them. I also saw a bit of that "episode" on the other TV– our main TV– and I wanted to rewind and watch it so bad.... also, there was something about... death or birthday gifts or something? IDK.
4/16/09
Walking around corner, then driving,...??? I was talking to Court about how I want to lose weight and stuff
There was some other part of the dream at first... but then it turned into a Heroes dream with Nathan and Peter (of course) where they were part of some rebel movement like in those photos and Peter was trying to fly off and do something but Nathan made sure he got stuck hanging from this crane instead so he couldn't go and endanger himself and such... something about childhood memories IDK though I was all worried because in the "next" episode Nathan turns traitorous fskfhs thanks Heroes
then, since they were at some dock thing, it turned into some under-the-sea... Little Mermaid-esque... thing with me and Court where again I felt too heavy in the water since I am fat :( And then my alarm woke me up and I tried to drift back into the same dream but then it turned into some homunculus Hughes thing where he was trying to disguise his kid for their safety – except it was a boy instead of a girl and it was weird I didn't actually see it in the end, it was like I was reading it instead and something about disguising them as Ishbalans IDK
4/20/09
Dream that I sat next to Milo in a taxi and he saw this sticker on my arm that I had previously put on myself in the dream that said something about "Peter's lip is awesome" or something???? fffffffffffff and then I talked with him and he mentioned something about wanting to go to a psychiatrist because being in Heroes had stressed him out so much HAHAHAHA and then I like tried to tell people this had happened but no one gave me a chance to talk :(
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I remember in that last dream, I kept on trying to CALL COURT AND TELL HER OMG OMG I MET MILOOOOOOO but I kept on getting DISTRACTED and then I woke up and was like OMG OMG I HAVE TO TELL HER I.... had a dream where I met Milo. God dammit.
...Also, now that I'm looking at these dreams, THERE IS A SERIOUS TREND OF DISNEY MOVIES IN THERE. What.
Anyway, where the hell did my weekend goooo? ;; I was supposed to get shit done and then all of a sudden... it was over. What the hell. I think I'm going to try to get out of the house to do my work next weekend; otherwise I just... lose track of time ugh.
Also, I just realized I'm out of my meds. T_T WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN ON SUNDAYS and leaves me med-less on Mondays, my busiest day ugh. Now I need to somehow... okay, good, they can refill it without any doctor shenanigans ahfkas PHEW BECAUSE THIS WEEK I NEED 'EM
Now I need to make sure I get up at 8 and I've already wasted half my night jhsfdka WHATEVER at least it'll cause me to fall asleep early tomorrow.
....I really hope I can get myself to do my Anthro reading in time for my final ugh. jfkfsasadg
and apps apps apps APPS ;_;
...Also, about a quarter of the time I try to type "heroes" into my icon finder, it comes out as "herpes." COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT.
Some dreams not included here I actually did post about right as I had them, but anyway. Some of these I like... don't even remember skjhfkasd. All of these were written RIGHT as I woke up, which is why there's no punctuation or coherency to speak of.
Also, my subconscious gave me like ten million (no seriously, like, seven in one month) Nathan dreams back before I even declared him my favorite character in the show. Clearly, it knows me better than I do. :(
...Rereading these, I am JUST A LITTLE BIT CREEPED OUT THAT A WEIRDO THING IN ONE OF THESE DREAMS ENDED UP PRETTY DAMN PROPHETIC IN THE CONTEXT OF THE SERIES HOLY CRAP.
9/7/07
-dream: Wilson was cleaning a toilet or something? old stethoscope down it? House was in it in a... lobby of some sort?
- Steven Raudry in a military uniform, a big graduation thing?
- Was Spider-Man, came across Eddie, Eddie trying not to turn into Venom "NO, EDDIE" hand on shoulder, then he turned into Venom and he chased me.
9/12/08
• creepy Nathan with Heidi, weirdo blackness descending, yaddah yaddah – stuff before?
• looking for Nathan hunter and he's missing and expecting him to be creepy but then calling and GPSing and he's fairly normal but hunter-ish
9/13/08
dfhsj WEIRDO DREAM um first it was MGS4 (or Zelda? a new game after Twilight Princess? where you were only young Link?) and then MGS4 except it was all Heroes-related and yeah Nathan's face got all screwed up but on the opposite side and then somehow Peter had to sacrifice himself and give his power to Nathan and Nathan took his shape-shifting ability, or... SOMETHING (either that or Nathan died and Peter posed as him for the rest of his life)??? and future Peter came back from the future to bug Nathan and then Nathan revealed that or... something. And then I bragged that I'd finished MGS4 and how it ended up ALL CENTERING AROUND MY FAVORITE CHARACTER and I went to read the MGS4 manga except that then it had a bunch of FMA characters like Roy and Hughes and stuff wtfffff. AND THEN I was explaining the new Zelda game to someone and complaining there were barely any long range weapons and how I'd used aiming with the wiimote like once for the slingshot and thennn I was dreaming about STAR FOX and talking to Star Wolf's former commander and how he'd trained Star Wolf and he'd been named "Brad" or something except I was PETER I think? And I kept on screwing with the guy's collection of candy and chapstick shit wtf
THE OTHER PART OF THE DREAM was well first I was buying stuff for school at this weird textbook store (some... book and then an encyclopedia of the bible and I was READING THROUGH IT BITCH and I read up Daughters of Erin) but also movie theatre and someone else was impressing guys with their movie knowledge, or.... something and then there was this weird alley area I had to park in to see my grandparents who I just wanted to avoid and then me, Court, and Jenny were going to Disneyland late at night to see a special HEROES show but I was arguing that we should wait until the next day since it was already late and we shouldn't waste our money on the huge Disneyland fee if we weren't going to stay that long.
10/3/08
Dream about Peter and future!Peter and future!Peter stopping time and stuff , then future!Hiro and Ando at coffeeshop with past!Hiro and Ando, past!Hiro and future!Ando want to take a big picture somehow it turns into a picture of government people nearby including G.W. Bush and then it's an art museum thing talking about a new movie with security detail ending up in the jungle trying to survive and LEARNING ABOUT THEMSELVES
11/30/08
Sylar doing OOC stuff – killing who he's not supposed to kill? what? Barbara shows up, Tracy kills her, but then she gets brought back – they're both wearing yellow jacket things. And then Nathan goes to a SNOWCONE SHOP(?????) with her that's run with some woman he's slept with (who has brown hair) and there's awkwardness and the woman is all "OH YOU" but then makes a purple snowcone for her (with red & white snowcone rock candy things)
1/26/09
Okay dream dream dream hopefully I'm remembering enough of this UM okay so I remember being/seeing Dean continually wake up in different classrooms at different times of his life, including one time where he woke up and it was super hot and he was super old and then he went into a person's yard through some cellophane thing and it was way cold there (snow and stuff) even though the rest was super warm.... then, some... thing where every person had an animal spirit and another thing where each animal spirit would take them over if they spent too much time abusing their abilities and one dude who ended up looking like some Totoro character and this other kind of DDR/rhythm game where you had to hit the beats just on time and then also SOMETHING about flying and maybe Trellis I DUNNO? baaaaaaaaah general creepy aura about everything and then also some knife-wielding dude somewhat like that crocodile kid in Dexter and um um um big sweeping views of this old tan castle thingy for Supernatural and then Dean getting in trouble somehow – WATCHING MARIACHIS AT SOME CLUB but then moving towards the back of the club.... something about Indiana Jones? Or.... not... combining abilities to try to save people from something? something in my head having to do with the fanart from last night and us watching an episode and then seeing the promo and THAT turned into Dean moving through different classrooms in different points in time – also a middle-aged one he went to
1/27/09
some auditorium where the seats didn't make sense; moved up and was blocking someone's view with my head in front of the projection; then, in this thing where I moved back and forth through two Halloween worlds (like in Kingdom Hearts?) was trying to get away from little oval-shaped-head boy in the other one, then moved to "safe" one and Sam, Dean, John(?) and someone else were there, Dean was all dealing with some kind of pain; his eyes fade into black and then it's all like "OH NOES HE'S A DEMON" and then like some other shell of a demon eye comes over it that's blacker, then it moves to Sam and he's got the same fade-in black eyes except he's not a demon and then they talk telepathically and Dean is like "I can't let people (dad?) know I'm like this" and Sam is like "okay" so then they pretend to be all normal and make an excuse to leave and go through some... forest... corridor? And there were faint images of Wincest and I was like NO NO I WILL NOT STAND FOR THIS. :( And then it turned into some weird... video game-like... thing where Dean(?) (didn't look like Dean) was flying on some platform thing... like a flying/rail shooter but then I was like some Lion King Cub thing and I tried to jump from the platform to the end of the level, I missed and fell waaay wayyyy waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy down (like Star Wars pits) and landed on like the bottom of the level.
3/31/09
Some kind of lobster place that Jenny was going to and I was like SHIT I LOVE THIS PLACE I WANNA GO TOO and once we were there I saw this poster for this movie I loved – a kids movie that doesn't actually exist – that seemed kind of scary with this big dragon-head thing made out of black vines and stuff and this similarly built smaller black dragon that had once been something else but was turned into something different. Then, the little... character.... minidragon.... things from the movie appear and one of them turns into a big dragon thing, except it's white and different. Then, I go to the bathroom in the restaurant but it's really weird – one small room with a bunch of weird little dividers in between the baths/toilets and you can see above the sides pretty easily, then Christina came in and I was like uhhh out of here so I went and ended up at someone's house whose rooms appear and disappear since they're on a rolling conveyer belt thing
Also, dream where we were driving with Andrew to Disneyland in his probe (similar to other dream I had where we were somewhere and decided to go to Disneyland from a different freeway than usual) and his car like goes off the ledge and dies and lots of people go off the ledge and yeah
4/12/09
I dreamt I caught a fish like on my desk and it was flopping around and I felt really bad about letting it die and then my cat wouldn't eat it and I still felt really bad, so I tried putting it in a bucket of water but it had like this long gash through it's middle but then it was suddenly in a terrarium and it was this amphibious thing and I got it more water and it was sleeping but I was sure it was going to die and jkafsk I felt so horrible.
Then, I was watching TV and saw a bit of the new season of Heroes come on and I was like AHHHHhkasha and of course Nathan and Peter were in the scene and it they were around this brick-looking building in farmland and apparently it was where Nathan got married but neither of them remembered it....??? later it returned to that scene and showed that Bennet was also with them. I also saw a bit of that "episode" on the other TV– our main TV– and I wanted to rewind and watch it so bad.... also, there was something about... death or birthday gifts or something? IDK.
4/16/09
Walking around corner, then driving,...??? I was talking to Court about how I want to lose weight and stuff
There was some other part of the dream at first... but then it turned into a Heroes dream with Nathan and Peter (of course) where they were part of some rebel movement like in those photos and Peter was trying to fly off and do something but Nathan made sure he got stuck hanging from this crane instead so he couldn't go and endanger himself and such... something about childhood memories IDK though I was all worried because in the "next" episode Nathan turns traitorous fskfhs thanks Heroes
then, since they were at some dock thing, it turned into some under-the-sea... Little Mermaid-esque... thing with me and Court where again I felt too heavy in the water since I am fat :( And then my alarm woke me up and I tried to drift back into the same dream but then it turned into some homunculus Hughes thing where he was trying to disguise his kid for their safety – except it was a boy instead of a girl and it was weird I didn't actually see it in the end, it was like I was reading it instead and something about disguising them as Ishbalans IDK
4/20/09
Dream that I sat next to Milo in a taxi and he saw this sticker on my arm that I had previously put on myself in the dream that said something about "Peter's lip is awesome" or something???? fffffffffffff and then I talked with him and he mentioned something about wanting to go to a psychiatrist because being in Heroes had stressed him out so much HAHAHAHA and then I like tried to tell people this had happened but no one gave me a chance to talk :(
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I remember in that last dream, I kept on trying to CALL COURT AND TELL HER OMG OMG I MET MILOOOOOOO but I kept on getting DISTRACTED and then I woke up and was like OMG OMG I HAVE TO TELL HER I.... had a dream where I met Milo. God dammit.
...Also, now that I'm looking at these dreams, THERE IS A SERIOUS TREND OF DISNEY MOVIES IN THERE. What.
Anyway, where the hell did my weekend goooo? ;; I was supposed to get shit done and then all of a sudden... it was over. What the hell. I think I'm going to try to get out of the house to do my work next weekend; otherwise I just... lose track of time ugh.
Also, I just realized I'm out of my meds. T_T WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN ON SUNDAYS and leaves me med-less on Mondays, my busiest day ugh. Now I need to somehow... okay, good, they can refill it without any doctor shenanigans ahfkas PHEW BECAUSE THIS WEEK I NEED 'EM
Now I need to make sure I get up at 8 and I've already wasted half my night jhsfdka WHATEVER at least it'll cause me to fall asleep early tomorrow.
....I really hope I can get myself to do my Anthro reading in time for my final ugh. jfkfsasadg
and apps apps apps APPS ;_;
...Also, about a quarter of the time I try to type "heroes" into my icon finder, it comes out as "herpes." COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT.