Aaaaahhhhh shit shit shit I've been a total spacecase dumbass and now my gas and electric bills are overdue. Plus I have like. Negative money in my bank account (gj not canceling that extra account, dude) since as much as I try to tell my parents to give me an allowance that I can learn to budget, they just want me to use my credit cards??? HOW DOES THIS MAKE SENSE???

Anyway gotta deposit a check and get on that because those overdue letters are scary and isuayfashglak I feel like I've lately been worse than usual with like... idk, keeping track of shit. I mean just look at how I haven't even replied to comments in my last few entries, and how I haven't been checking my flist at all, and how I didn't start replying to Plot Post stuff until today even though I got Sylar in first... I just... I don't know. My doctor mentioned trying me out on some real ADD medication on top of the antidepressants, and as much as I hate blaming my failures on a lack of overmedication, I think that might be a good idea at this point, since I am... so incompetent with everything in my life. Ugh. I mean, it takes me like 2 hours or more to do a Sylar post when I'm not even distracting myself aside from answering a couple of Damned questions. How does... I don't even know. ;________; I don't want to screw myself over at this point in my life, man.

hfkashdfados;foew;as so yeah, anyway... sorry to people whose comments I haven't replied to in my last few entries. ._. I don't mean to be a neglectful douche – it just kind of... happens.

In other news, I have rediscovered my great and undying love for Liquid Snake. ♥ .....Oh right, and I started college at a four-year university THIS IS KIND OF IMPORTANT, ISN'T IT. My schedule was all kinds of fucked up, so that was pretty stressful to figure out, and now I'm gonna try to crash a class tomorrow so I don't have to take the equivalent at 9AM on Thursday and then not get off campus until my last class ends at 10PM 8( BUT IF I HAVE TO, IT WILL BE SO. it was kind of hilarious because of course I ended up having to do all this running around IN THE POURING RAIN THAT SOCAL HAS BEEN GETTING

But yeah, just... I know I've said it a 378983742 times before, but it's such a downer how I feel like I have such a hard time doing like a quarter of the shit that other people do. It's like I get super anxious about the simplest shit and eiwykashlsg

I guess on the subject of good news, I've been making active tactical strikes against my chronic nail-biting/general finger mutilation habit and actually having a bit of success, so... that's good, at least. :>

Also, thanks to a combination of demyx's journaling and continuum's chatting, whenever I listen to this song all I can picture is Zachary Quinto writhing around in goth glam with Rolo, Rick Rape!Milo, and Conan the Barbarian!Jared as backup dancers.

....Liquid can be that random-ass snake or something idk

lacidiana@gmail.com: I just realized that like
lacidiana@gmail.com: the cobra unit
lacidiana@gmail.com: very accurately describes the general heroes experience
lacidiana@gmail.com: the joy
lacidiana@gmail.com: the fear
thecourtster@gmail.com: OH HAHAHAHA
lacidiana@gmail.com: THE PAIN
lacidiana@gmail.com: THE FURY
lacidiana@gmail.com: THE SORROW
lacidiana@gmail.com: the end
lacidiana@gmail.com: :(
thecourtster@gmail.com: ;_;

I... really should sleep, but I suddenly became curious about all these documents I'd opened and jotted down haphazard dream notes into that were scattered throughout my computer. I ended up collecting them all into one document and.... jesus christ MY SUBCONSCIOUS IS SO FUCKING FIXATED ON FANDOM AGKADKA

Some dreams not included here I actually did post about right as I had them, but anyway. Some of these I like... don't even remember skjhfkasd. All of these were written RIGHT as I woke up, which is why there's no punctuation or coherency to speak of.

Also, my subconscious gave me like ten million (no seriously, like, seven in one month) Nathan dreams back before I even declared him my favorite character in the show. Clearly, it knows me better than I do. :(

...Rereading these, I am JUST A LITTLE BIT CREEPED OUT THAT A WEIRDO THING IN ONE OF THESE DREAMS ENDED UP PRETTY DAMN PROPHETIC IN THE CONTEXT OF THE SERIES HOLY CRAP.

( Dream Notes. )

I remember in that last dream, I kept on trying to CALL COURT AND TELL HER OMG OMG I MET MILOOOOOOO but I kept on getting DISTRACTED and then I woke up and was like OMG OMG I HAVE TO TELL HER I.... had a dream where I met Milo. God dammit.

...Also, now that I'm looking at these dreams, THERE IS A SERIOUS TREND OF DISNEY MOVIES IN THERE. What.

Anyway, where the hell did my weekend goooo? ;; I was supposed to get shit done and then all of a sudden... it was over. What the hell. I think I'm going to try to get out of the house to do my work next weekend; otherwise I just... lose track of time ugh.

Also, I just realized I'm out of my meds. T_T WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN ON SUNDAYS and leaves me med-less on Mondays, my busiest day ugh. Now I need to somehow... okay, good, they can refill it without any doctor shenanigans ahfkas PHEW BECAUSE THIS WEEK I NEED 'EM

Now I need to make sure I get up at 8 and I've already wasted half my night jhsfdka WHATEVER at least it'll cause me to fall asleep early tomorrow.

....I really hope I can get myself to do my Anthro reading in time for my final ugh. jfkfsasadg

and apps apps apps APPS ;_;

...Also, about a quarter of the time I try to type "heroes" into my icon finder, it comes out as "herpes." COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT.

Okay, this is mainly just an excuse to use this new icon. UM.

The Mustang's brakes got fixed (sorta; they still squeak like hell) so I've been driving it lately. \o/ FUN. Today, me, Court, Andrew, and Jenny all went to Bay Cities, got food, and then came back here and hung out. And played board games. And we had an awesome time. Driving in a convertible on the freeway with your best buds on a nice day... one of moments in life when you're like "man, this is perfect." ♥

Parents are out of town and so's my brother, so... I got the house to myself! I've been letting it become a mess more just because than out of laziness, and I cleaned up some of it with Jenny today. Need to get up early tomorrow to water all of Mom's plants and then... go back to sleep. Or maybe stay up until the sun rises and water them. And then sleep.

Watched some Batman: TAS tonight and then finished rewatching Batman Begins and taking notes. Also am practicing writing Bruce in a one-on-one RP with Court. Gonna be bringing Liquid back into Conscripted tomorrow, and hopefully bringing Sylar into dayshift at Damned. Annnnnd stuff.

...Also, I have never in all my years figured out a proper way to list video game remixes in the damn current music field. D:

( THE PRECEDING LO-QUALITY CELL PHONE VIDEOS )

We only went to AX for one day this year, BUT WHAT A GLORIOUS DAY IT WAS. Not only did THAT (^) OCCUR, but I MET loreamara IN REAL LIFE FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!!!!

Also ran into an old friend of mine, Pirmin. We barely recognized each other, it's been so long. 8D SUCH AN EXCITING DAY YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY

As you guys might've already heard from burningvigor, she and I have found a new RP we're super-excited about. Seriously, we applied as characters within the same day we heard of it, so impressed we were by the organization and the set-up/setting itself. The name is conscripted; it's a war environment with mod-assigned ranks and positions, along with three separate, warring factions, so it's pretty perfect for Metal Gear Solid characters. Court apped Snake and I apped Liquid; I'm totally excited since this is the first time I've been able to play him at a multifandom RP due to his uh... self-obsessed nature and being physically unable to NOT BE IN CHARGE OF SOMETHING SIGNIFICANT. (Hence why I can't have him at damned. D8)

Anyway, um, pimping the game. 8D

( CONSCRIPTED: BRAND NEW WAR-BASED RP )

There's a Raiden too, and WE WANT MORE MGS CHARACTERS. Please? 8D The game hasn't started yet, so I can't really say how the playing will end up being, but me and Court have already had questions we needed to bring to the mods and they were extremely understanding and accommodating about it. <3

Anyway, the RP got changed so that it opens for posting right as damned apps open. D: BAD FOR MY HEALTH, though of course apps take higher priority. And speaking of damned apps opening, I'm still crossing my fingers for Heroes people. <3333 I've been having a blast with Sylar (ALTHOUGH HE TOTALLY SCREWED HIMSELF OVER HERE AAAAHAHAHAHA) and he hasn't even encountered more than one canonmate in person yet. >D

ALL OF THIS. TOO MUCH FUN. also need to post for my and Court's RP and also watch those BATMAN ANIME SHORTS skfjhaksld

Everyone seems to be making MGS4 posts, so I guess I'll throw in my very small two cents. 8D;

( No spoilers, but cut because I know it's frustrating to hear about stuff if you don't have the game. :/ )

Also, Court and I are randomly doing a pre and up-to Shadow Moses Liquid/Snake A/U RP through e-mail. 8D ALTERNATE ENDING. NEW DELIVERY SYSTEM. OLD PAIRING.

NO, STOPPIT, BRAIN, I DON'T WANT TO GET BACK INTO MGS IT'S BEEN OVER THREE YEARS I DON'T KAJSHdlskjhfdkgkfs oh god yes I do. D: Andrew finished MGS4, btw, and will write a incoherent ramblepost about the whole experience when I don't have shifts to change and sleep to have.

In less more important news, I've started my Comm 1 class and I GOT A'S IN ALL OF MY CLASSES LAST SEMESTER WOOOOO. 8DDDD Guess my Linguistic Anthropology professor liked my paper after all!

SPEAKING OF WHICH, since I know some of you were interested in reading it: HERE is the Internet Communities & Net Slang paper that I did (.doc format). Um... tell me if it sucked or not? 8D;

Also, I rediscovered this fan mp3 the other week when it came up on shuffle.

Strike911 - Liquid Snake Interviews Psycho Mantis (direct link)

STILL MAKES ME LOL SO HARD. "HEY, MAN, I'M NOT JUDGING YOU; I'M INTO BONDAGE."

And now I must shiftchange.

.....ohmygodiloveliquidsomuch

Edit: OH ALSO THESE WORDLES THINGS ARE AMAZING (idea stolen from zalia):



( MOAR )

THIS GAME REKINDLES MY FIERCE AND UNDYING LOVE FOR LIQUID/SNAKE, OLD MAN BODIES BEDAMNED

I GO TO MY OLD FANART FOLDER TO SATISFY MY NEED



...CURSES, IT JUST MAKES IT SO MUCH WORSE

( Picspam of my favorite ever hotass LiqSnake fanarts from my favorite ever MGS fanart site. Absolutely NO MGS4-related art or spoilers, but quite a lot of pining for indulgent A/U. And making a goofy fool of myself. )

My bottom line is that I fucking adore Liquid in any way, shape, or form for reasons I can only partially explain, and I am ecstatic that my previously only vaguely founded, indulgent ideas of his characterization have been constantly and concretely reinforced during the course of this game.

Oh, and I also love him banging Snake, whether it looks like this or this or this.

AWAIT A FULL MGS4 COMPLETE FREAKOUT REPORT ONCE WE FINISH AND THANK YOU AGAIN TO evildrew FOR LIKE A MILLION LIFETIMES

( Silly Chat Shenanigans: GODDAMMIT DON'T SAY IT LIKE THAT )

In other news:

- I have now seen all of The Office, thereby exhausting one possible procrastination show (though I want to rewatch 4th season in order now that I've seen the rest). ( Thoughts! -Some spoilers.- )

- I have gotten my hands on S1 of Batman:TAS and I have S3 coming in the mail. WOOOOOOOOOOOOO! MOAR PROCRASTINATION.

- I've been replaying MGS2 with Andrew and MGS3 by myself. I forgot how much ass I can kick at those games if I play intensely enough. 8D Unfortunately, I am still very rusty. Which brings me to...

- HOLY SHIT ANDREW HAS MGS4 ANDREW HAS MGS4 ANDREW HAS MGS4 I AM GOING TO BE PLAYING IT TONIGHT OHMYGOD NO WAY

- If I weren't the one who'd put up the Activity Check, I'd be so scared by it. :( asagldf so sorry, guys. I hate being scary.

Okay, this absolutely amazes me: Usually, when I read older stuff of mine, even if it's only a couple months old, I cringe and flail and gripe to myself about how bad it is, etc. etc. I know half of it is being your own worst critic, but yeah.

BUT THIS. THIS. I posted it up on 5/05/05, and when I wrote it, I loved it. When I proofread it, I loved it. It's been three years now, and every single fucking time I've reread it, I've still loved it. I keep on figuring a day will come when I'll reread it and cringe and get not-proud like with all of my other old stuff, but THAT DAY HAS NEVER COME. I think I can honestly say it's my favorite fanfic I've ever written. I mean, sure, it's got some old markers of juvenile-ness, like too much cussing and unncessary bolding, but overall... it still makes me LOL. In a good way. <3

I love it when I can let myself be proud of something. :D It's a wonderful feeling and I don't allow it as often as I should.

...And speaking of which, I have no idea what the fuck I'm going to do when MGS4 comes out. If I can't get my hands on a PS3, I might have to take desperate measures. Like hiding under a rock in a dark, dark cave and never making human contact EVER AGAIN.

IN OTHER NEWS. FEY, I AM POSTING FOR YOU RIGHT NOW. Would it be possible for us to have another back-and-forth RPing session one of the nights this weekend? Since I want Scar to do your Lust.......... justice. :] And you know how slow I am otherwise. D8

Um... only 9 e-mails left to send! \o/ And I should make my debut Dean post, woo~

EDIT: AHH, FEY, Safari ate my post. D8 um um um WE SHALL DO BACK-AND-FORTH THREADING SOON? To make up? ._. 'Cause I really need to sleep and kjsfd

I had a dream last night that involved a giant flood, the Simpsons, Solid Snake, arcade games, and Jim Profit.

I woke up for a bit and when I went back to sleep, I had a dream that involved a weirdo school, Ganondorf, spaceships, and Transformers.

whaaaaaaaat

In other news, watched the newest episodes of Supernatural with Max last night! \o/ On the way to my house, we decided we wanted Red Mango (this Pinkberry's ripoff near my house, but hey, if it's near my house...) and so we went. We ordered--one medium for her, and three smalls for me and my family--and as she was ordering, the machine refused to take her debit card. Didn't take her credit card either. I was kinda like "wtf?" since I was pretty sure she had a bunch of money in her account from her last job, but I was like "Hey, Max, it's cool, I'll cover you." So I go up to the cashier and give them my Amex card, and IT DOESN'T WORK EITHER. So at that point, the staff people realized it was an issue with their machine rather than an issue with our cards, so they were like "we can only take cash right now..." and Max and I were like "we only have like... seven bucks. D:" So they were like "...OKAY, YOU CAN JUST TAKE THEM." And we were like "WHAT REALLY???"

So we got 17 bucks worth of desserts. For free.

Truly SWEET.

Anyway, we watched the Spn episodes (last week's and this week's), and they were of course awesome! We then watched Profit, which Max wtfed at and wanted to watch more of. So we did. And then I took her home.

Also, a couple of days ago, Jenny and I went to Andrew's (who'd just gotten his Instrument Rating, yay!) and we played Simpsons Monopoly. It was extremely fun and I won. 8D

I HAVE MADE A PLEDGE TO SIT DOWN AND READ 10 APPS TODAY AT LEAST, SEEING AS COURT CAUGHT UP SOMEHOW whatthefuck ;___;

I feel so very, very warm and fuzzy after reading the comments on that RP compliments meme. SO GLAD YOU GUYS LOVE OUR BABY AS MUCH AS WE DO. ;_; <3333

Also glad that people generally seem to like the new userinfo. Gonna go read me some apps now, woo! ...Or Anthro reading, whichever seems more important at the time. >_>;

Also, Re: English class: the original versions of Little Red Riding Hood are so pornographic, jesus. D: SUPERNATURAL, YOU LIED TO ME. The Grimms version was actually the least disturbing. (Aside from the scissors part. When I read that part of the short stories, I could not get Dean out of my head. :|)

ORITE AND HOUSE YESTERDAY. (YESTERDAY, WTF???) I cannot believe how gay this season is. Gaygaygaygaygay. Like, seriously, WHUT HOUSE. I love how Wilson just rolls with it, all like "why, yes, it's perfectly normal for House to be this possessive over my fine ass" and yes, I actually like Amber. :3

Also, if House continues to be at 9PM on Mondays next September, I MIGHT HAVE TO SMACK A BITCH AND I THINK YOU KNOW WHY.

And I'm STIIIIILLLLLLL INNNNN A DREEEEAAAAMMMM where House was trying to catch Dexter and expose him as a serial killer, and then the climactic scene ended up being an inquisition on Dexter that turned into a surprise birthday party. And he had a lime-colored shirt on. And this Starbucks barista looked like Mohinder.

Man, haven't updated in a while, huh? Well, HERE WE GO.

I had some pretty EPIC fandom dreams last month or so, including:

( THE EPIC FANDOM DREAMS )

ALSO. THIS GUY NEEDS A NAME. I have a plot, background, personality and everything figured out for him, but NO NAME. I've been debating between like... Alec, Matt, and Marc, and someone said maybe Jacob, but I'd be open to any other suggestions. He's a good-natured detective with a wife back home trying to quit smoking and on this uh... heavily-shrouded case thing. In a post-apocalyptic underground world. He also of course has a sekrit tragic past, but that would be a SPOILER. (Ohgoditallsoundsocliche) PLZ TO BE HELPING ME, I DREW THIS DOODLE ESPECIALLY FOR YOU, F-LIST and I need help since I'm going to be trying out NaNo this year and this guy is a main character in the original story I wanna work on. 8D;

I THINK THAT'S ALL THE BABBLE I HAVE. THE END.

OH WAIT NO. HOUSE TONIGHT. AND DEXTER ON SUNDAY. EEEEEEEEE AND CSI ON THURSDAY, BUT THAT'S A HORRIBLY INACCURATE AND OVER-THE-TOP AND SCRIPTED AND TERRIBLE SHOW AND WHY WOULD I EVER BE COMPLETELY ADDICTED TO RERUNS ON SPIKE AND HAVE DOWNLOADED THE SEASON FINALE PFFFF it's my guilty pleasure aaaauuugghhh

Oh, and also, I've been doing figure drawing on Sunday and we've read pretty much ALL THE APPS WOOO just need to send out the last e-mails now.

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MGS4

sflkjdslfjlsd need PS3 already 700 DOLLARS FOR THAT ONE GAME? HELL YEAH IT'S WORTH IT ksjdfhaksf