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Laziest. Layout change. Ever. EEEEE. Can't quite bring myself to get rid of the Nathan moodset, though. ;A; ♥

Oh, also, totally behind on schoolwork, as per usual. And I (somehow) got an internship at the writing department for a scripted show.

YYYYYEEEAAAHHHHH!!!!

OH MY GOD

WHAT

THIS ERIN PERSON IS POSTING TO LJ

WHAT

...

HELLO, ALL! God, it's been nearly half a year since I've posted, hasn't it? Partly because I have been LEGITIMATELY BUSY WITH... LIFE THINGS (school, writing, full-time internship, south america vacation, comic con, concert, what have you), and partly because I have been illegitimately busy with... fandom things.

Bottom line, these are my fandoms rn:

- Life on Mars
- Doctor Who
- Top Gear
- Life on Mars
- Life on Mars
- SAM TYLER AND GENE HUNT GETTING IT ON VIOLENTLY oh wait same show

FFFFFFFUCK YOU BBC I held out so long on anglophiling, man. So bloody long. And yes, Top Gear is a fandom. Don't. even. talk. to me okay this is my life now.

But yeah. Life on Mars. MAN I REMEMBER when people on my f-list were ranting about it when it first came out, you know, FIVE YEARS AGO, and I was like WHAT IS THIS WEIRD THING WITH THAT SQUISHY-FACED MASTER GUY AND AN OLD CAR LOL IT LOOKS DUMB

and now

now sam tyler is my puppycakes and I want to cuddle him to sleep every night

uhhh MAN MY INCOHERENCY HASN'T GOTTEN MUCH BETTER, HAS IT? Anyhoo, I've been sadly behind on RP things, but I've been good about writing! I'm uh kind of completely obsessed with the whole Sam!Master concept right now so I have about. 8300 words of that. so far. and lots of pages of planning sfjkhaksfhja it is my baby project right now. IT IS THE SEXIEST IDEA EVER OK and although there are about a million fics written for it, I've only found one that fully Meets My Needs. So. Clearly, I must take matters into my own hands. :|a

AND ALSO YES. Internship. Suffice to say that between the last entry and now, I interned for several months at a comic book company and for this summer, I've interned at a cable television network and edited web clips for them WHICH HAS ALL BEEN VERY AMAZING AND EXCITING and maybe I'll go into more detail in an f-locked post. 8D

Man. LJ-posting. This is making me horribly nostalgic and weepy and NO MORE PAID ACCOUNT LOOK AT MY SAD SIX LITTLE ICONS.

Oh right and Dean/Castiel. Supernatural is the kingpin of fandoms that stick in your brain and I am so bad for Dean/Cas right now and forever skjfhajksfa. SCREAM I SAW THEM AT COMIC CON. I SAW THEM I SAW THEM I PREVIOUSLY THOUGHT JENSEN ACKLES WAS A MYTHICAL UNICORN OF BEAUTY BUT HE ACTUALLY EXISTS THIS IS AMAZING TO ME

....and OH GOD NATHAN MOOD ICON. NATHAN. I STILL LU. SOBBBBB heroes is still a gaping wound only bandaged by new beautiful wonderfulness.

I sound drugged up BYE GUYS

WHY DO I DECIDE TO LJ POST LIKE WAY IN THE MORNING WHEN I NEED TO SLEEP. I guess I've just missed you, LJ, even with all your retardation. Plurk's been stealing me away from you with its easy posts and quick replies, but at least I know you don't punish me for leaving you for weeks at a time. ;;

Anyway, was just browsing through my Documents folder and LOL OH WOW, SELF. CAN'T TELL WHERE YOUR PRIORITIES LIE AT ALL.

now go actually finish some of those so you can stop CONSTANTLY SADFACING at ninth_wonders. 8(

( 4x12: The Fifth Stage )

ON A LIGHTER NOTE I totally got some amazing pointers in this episode for how to handle Sylar in certain damned situations aisufhaksfhsahahahaaaaaaaa

( Upcoming Heroes spoilers. )

Also, like... I've recently realized that regardless of anything that happens in this current arc of Heroes or how it's executed, suddenly, most of the fics for my OTP in Heroes-dom are all centered around my favorite themes ever, so I can like go to the newsletter and basically be guaranteed a fic that caters to specific indulgences that I previously could hardly ever satisfy, let alone for characters I cared about. THIS IS JUST.....SO NEW AND INCREDIBLE FOR ME

Also, yesterday I had to have my 20-page script read in my screenwriting class and I think it went over pretty well! \o/ Got some really useful concrit from my professor, who seemed to overall really like it, and when the people who'd read the parts handed it back to me they were all complimenting me on it hfaisufla YAY. It really meant a lot to me since I'd actually ended up going with an idea that had been cooking in my head for a while since that's the pitch that my group from a few weeks before had liked the most.

HOWEVER the best part is how, when I got back my anonymous feedback from the other students, one of the responses read: "Was the main character gay? Was the other guy his lover?" .........IUDIHADKLDA I PRETTY MUCH DIED ON THE SPOT GUYS I SUCCESSFULLY PULLED OFF SLASH SUBTEXT FUCK YES.

Also I totally just conked out last night around 11 or 12 and then woke up again around 4 really thirsty and then stayed up an hour or so and then fell asleep again. And now I am sore. D8

HOLY SHIT NEED TO GET GOING TO CLASS /ZOOM

..........................................STILL FREAKING OUT

NEED TO DO POSTS

SHIT

ALSO GOT AN A ON MY LATIN AM. HISTORY ESSAY I TURNED IN A BILLION YEARS AGO WHICH I WAS SURE WAS C MATERIAL SO THAT'S COOL

( 4x11 Thanksgiving a.k.a. oh. my. god. )

I still can't believe how incredibly specifically the circumstances of this arc pander to me. It's just... fucking insane. Fucking insane.

Also, both my computers are being royal bitches to me and Safari refuses to work. Again. And Firefox spinning-rainbows me into oblivion whenever I try to like put two words into a web form a.k.a. LJ comment skjhfaks T____T

ALSO NEED TO MAKE THOSE CHANGES TO MY SCRIPT AND PRINT STUFF. AND TRY NOT TO DIE OF CONTINUING FANGASMING. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

And goddammit I wanted to do posts tonight but I'm already past my bedtime and fkjdhfkdhjsk fuck ;;

I JUST

IF I TRY TO TYPE ABOUT THAT EPISODE IT WILL JUST END UP LIKE OH FUCK I'M DOING IT

( AHHHHHHHHHHHHH aka spoilers for 4x10: Brother's Keeper )

And that is why Erin is doomed to never finish her already-late script assignment. And to also never have a boyfriend.

Also? I am going to make so many icons that I will possibly crash my hard drive.

I have a test tomorrow and a project due but HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FOCUS ON ANYTHING AFTER THAT EPISODE

AKJGD:PAUORJSGFK:JAGFK:JAHFLKAFKJHALKHKAKLJDHALKJDHKLAJHFKLAJHFKL

OH MY GOD

( 4.04 HEROES SPAZZING. SPOILERS. )

BEST. BIRTHDAY. PRESENT. EVER. No seriously at some points in there my heart was pounding embarrassingly fast due to excitement. kfjahskdfgasdg

And all right, I really fucking need to study now shiiiiiiiiiiiiit.

I CHANGED MY LAYOUT. Well, not really – just the header and the colors. And the original layout isn't even my making so. Um. Yeah. I'm lazy.

But it does have Nathan on it, so. That's cool. :)

SPEAKING OF NATHAN OGOD HEROES TOMORROW. sldhaksjfasfasf Although some vague spoiler synopsis sentence has killed much of my expectation for What I Want More Than the Second Coming of Christ, I WILL STILL HOPE. BECAUSE I AM A MASOCHIST APPARENTLY AND THIS SHOW CONTINUES TO BE MY READILY ABUSIVE BOYFRIEND.

but no seriously i can't physically stop hoping for this ;; fuckfuckfuck

BUT EITHER WAY I am excited despite all reason and the fact that the rest of me is full of anxiety. D8 Baw, self. Baw.

In other news, holy shit I need to get letters of rec and the rest of my LMU application together and study/read for a Latin America History quiz on Tuesday auuuuggghh faaaaaaaaack.

BUT HIGHER PRIORITY THAN THAT IS POSTAPOCA CROSSOVER NATHAN POST TO SAM. TRUFAX.
...oh jesus I am so gay for it kfjhkforiuoaska

Erin: I WANT NATHAN TOO
Erin: IS THIS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR
Court: IDK
Court: I would show you gay carnies but I'm not sure that would help XD
Erin: fff JUST SHOW ME
Erin: unless
Erin: nathan is one of the carnies
Court: No
Erin: wait scratch that that would be awesome

oh god oh god oh jesus christ Heroes premiere in less than a week fuck me fuck me fuckkkkkkkkkkkk meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

IT IS LIKE THIS FEELING OF HORRIBLE PANIC RISING IN MY GUT BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE EXCITED BUT I AM BUT I KNOW BY ALL GODS I SHOULDN'T BE SINCE THEY ARE GOING TO SHOW ME ALL MY HOPES AND DREAMS AND CRUSH THEM ONCE AGAIN (see here.)

also I will watch House second since at least some psychological trauma will be immediately relieved by Damned!House yesssssss

I caught up on Heroes. :( With Court.

In one night. :((((

.......I AM SO STUPID FOR THIS SHOW FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

Also, it was a hell of a lot better than the first half of S3 but I AM STILL NOT CONVINCED. I WILL NOT LEAVE MYSELF OPEN TO HOPE ONLY TO BE DISAPPOINTED ONCE AGAIN. though holy fuck nathan was hot holy fuck

AND WTF AT THE FIRST HALF OF FUGITIVES: WAS THE ENTIRE PLOT BASICALLY THAT NATHAN HAS A KINK FOR CHAINING PEOPLE UP IN UNCOMFORTABLY SMALL ROOMS? WHAT?

( I don't even know. )

The only productive thing to come out of this was finally figuring out how to color correct Heroes screens in that useless preview.

...Wait, no, still not productive.

OKAY TIME TO SLEEP

Holy shit, I haven't updated my journal in like a month and a half, have I?

WELL, UM, ANYWAY. YES, went to Japan for two weeks. 8D It was fantastic. I BOUGHT NINE DOUJIN MOSTLY HUGHES/ROY HA HA HA HAAA FOR 25 BUCKS. THIS DOUJIN STORE'S FMA SECTION WAS SO HUGE IT TOOK BATHS AT SEA WORLD IT HAD SEPARATE LABELED SECTIONS FOR PAIRINGSkjhfkasdjhgkalsjs Yes, this was the highlight of my trip wow I am not a loser. But seriously, it was great and it made me realize I do like to travel... just not with my parents. I walked a hell of a lot and got in actually decent shape but um now I am out of it again. D: And going back to my usual poundage ugghhhh.

I SHOULD MAKE A JAPAN POST but I probably never will durrrrrrr me but yeah, spent a week in Tokyo, the rest of the time in Kyoto, and took a day trip to Hiroshima. Spent a night in a ryokan and went to an onsen, which was quite pleasant. And ummm SAW COURT. <3! WOOOO.

Of course, I came back almost immediately to APPS APPS APPS and then promptly became sick, so that stalled my jet lag recovery for a while. D8 Once I got out of it, I was determined to start exercising again, so I pulled out the ol' DDR dance pad and I've been trying to do that every day but have been failing these past couple days. OH AND WE RANDOMLY GOT AN XBOX 360, FUCKING FINALLY. I spent like seven hours yesterday playing Mass Effect asfjkhaksfja. My brother pitched in on it and my parents paid for the rest as an early birthday gift to me, since when my actual birthday rolls around, it'll be about a week and a half before my application to LMU is due.

Oh, yeah, I also did that – visited an LMU admissions counselor and gave her my transcript and AP scores and stuff and asked her the questions I had and so on and so forth. She said I was good and competitive so hopefully I have a shot of getting in. Woooooooo.

Anything else? Ummmm nah – Japan just makes me wish I did more physical things instead of sitting on my fat ass. :| I THINK I WILL TRY TO PLAY OBLIVION FROM THE TREADMILL TOMORROW. LOLSCREENADDICTION

Also, the reason I finally made an entry was because I remembered it'd been a hell of a long time since I'd taken the small pleasure of picking out a Nathan mood icon etwaeslfka. ILU SO MUCH FLYING MAN WHICH IS MAYBE WHY I STILL DREAD SEEING THE REST OF S3 OH FUCK ME. THE HORRIBLE SEASON WHICH, BY THE WAY, STALKED ME TO JAPAN; I GO TO MY HOTEL ROOM TO FIND A TELEVISION PROGRAM PAMPHLET WITH SEASON 3 HIRO ON THE FRONT AND MORE ADS O ON THE INSIDE SITTING ON MY PILLOW. /whinewhinewhine

OH OH AND. WAS I CORRECT IN DISCOVERING THAT THIS COMING SEASON OF SUPERNATURAL PREMIERES ON OCTOBER 4TH??? WHICH IS MY BIRTHDAY??? Because if true, I am SO having a combo birthday/Supernatural premiere party AHAHAHA. I WANT AN IMPALA-SHAPED BIRTHDAY CAKE. :|

the end

Also oh shit I need to throw Sybrows out into the ZOMBIE MADNESS, don't I? :X

.........also I need to make that Nathan layout I keep telling myself I'll do to match my moodtheme. 8D SOMEDAY WHEN I AM NOT DOING TONS OF OTHER THINGS.

ANNNND I SHOULD HAVE CLICKED "SUBMIT" HOURS AGO WAT SELF

GUESS WHO JUST WON THE APP-READING CONTEST

GUESS WHO ACCEPTED A NATHAN TODAY

KSJDHAPDUOWPIRDH:LKHD"PLAJ:LDJBSFJH:SLDJKNXAZ

I... really should sleep, but I suddenly became curious about all these documents I'd opened and jotted down haphazard dream notes into that were scattered throughout my computer. I ended up collecting them all into one document and.... jesus christ MY SUBCONSCIOUS IS SO FUCKING FIXATED ON FANDOM AGKADKA

Some dreams not included here I actually did post about right as I had them, but anyway. Some of these I like... don't even remember skjhfkasd. All of these were written RIGHT as I woke up, which is why there's no punctuation or coherency to speak of.

Also, my subconscious gave me like ten million (no seriously, like, seven in one month) Nathan dreams back before I even declared him my favorite character in the show. Clearly, it knows me better than I do. :(

...Rereading these, I am JUST A LITTLE BIT CREEPED OUT THAT A WEIRDO THING IN ONE OF THESE DREAMS ENDED UP PRETTY DAMN PROPHETIC IN THE CONTEXT OF THE SERIES HOLY CRAP.

( Dream Notes. )

I remember in that last dream, I kept on trying to CALL COURT AND TELL HER OMG OMG I MET MILOOOOOOO but I kept on getting DISTRACTED and then I woke up and was like OMG OMG I HAVE TO TELL HER I.... had a dream where I met Milo. God dammit.

...Also, now that I'm looking at these dreams, THERE IS A SERIOUS TREND OF DISNEY MOVIES IN THERE. What.

Anyway, where the hell did my weekend goooo? ;; I was supposed to get shit done and then all of a sudden... it was over. What the hell. I think I'm going to try to get out of the house to do my work next weekend; otherwise I just... lose track of time ugh.

Also, I just realized I'm out of my meds. T_T WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN ON SUNDAYS and leaves me med-less on Mondays, my busiest day ugh. Now I need to somehow... okay, good, they can refill it without any doctor shenanigans ahfkas PHEW BECAUSE THIS WEEK I NEED 'EM

Now I need to make sure I get up at 8 and I've already wasted half my night jhsfdka WHATEVER at least it'll cause me to fall asleep early tomorrow.

....I really hope I can get myself to do my Anthro reading in time for my final ugh. jfkfsasadg

and apps apps apps APPS ;_;

...Also, about a quarter of the time I try to type "heroes" into my icon finder, it comes out as "herpes." COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT.

Tagged by tinted_glass for Nathan Petrelli. YEAH, THAT OBSCURE CHARACTER I NEVER EVER TALK ABOUT, GEEZ, THANKS, MINA. GET TO KNOW A GIRL.



1. Do you like this character?
OH DEAR GOD YES. TRY "LOVE." AND "ADORE." MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF. Well, almost more than life itself. I mean, I made that entry a little while back about how I'm pretty damn sure he's my favorite character. Ever. omg naatahhannnannanaskjdhjkasfh <3333

( General spoilers up to mid season 3 and the one spoiler I know from the end of season 3. Also, some picspamming. )

9. Please choose 6 friends with your choice of character.
burningvigor - Peter Petrelli
chaneystarr - Claire Bennet
continuum - Sam Winchester
laverinth - Mohinder Suresh
leaute - River Tam
merelyaphase - Jonathan Crane
+loreamara - Roy Mustang (BECAUSE I CAN)

EDIT: Orite I am dumb and did not consider Maia some of you do not watch Heroes. SO HERE IS THE CODE FOR EVERYONE'S CONVENIENCE. <3

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Bahhhh I feel unproductive even when I am being productive.

I'm trying to get up really early so I can talk to Court in the morning (get up super early instead of staying up super late) and also because I'm way better at being on time to class when I wake up way ahead of schedule. The downside to this is, of course, that I can't stay up as late and if I don't properly manage my time, I feel like I've wasted a whole day.

Still, today, I woke up after only like 2 1/2 hours of sleep, did my Creative Writing assignment no sweat, talked to Court, got showered, got dressed, was able to get to class on time by taking the bus (GASP), went to my classes, wrote out some more of sweet, merciful Heroes headcanon oh nathan's lord in heaven a previously abandoned Peter/Adam DarkFuture fic (that I might actually be able to post publicly if I ever finish it, yay!) during said useless Creative Writing class (my prof spent like five minutes singing. I am not joking) and then spent time in my new haven of the SMC library and updated my Schoolhouse scheduling program and worked out my new schedule for catch-up reading and did some of that reading, which I'd been putting off, and once I have a foot in the door, it's much easier for me to complete a task than it is to get up and start it, so... that's good!

So all in all, I feel like I've been productive, but then I think back to apps and how I really need to get my ass in gear on reading them and how we're making people wait so long, and I also think how I was in the library for like four and a half hours and I should have been able to get more done, and just how I have such a horrible sense for time and time management and.... I don't know, I just feel like it takes me so much more time to do things than it should. ;; Even when I'm not actively procrastinating or anything! And then I get home and it's time to sleep again if I want to get up early. Auggghh. Which is what I need to do now. This also all might have to do with my issues with getting to my damn Anthro class on time or even getting to it at all and I hope I can pull a B from the class, at least, and it's ironic since the prof is great and a hilarious lecturer, but... augh, long story, but anyway, I seem to be fixing those problems now. ::Crosses fingers.::

So on one hand, I don't feel down in the dumps or anything like that and I think I'm heading in the right direction for my internal clock's sake, but on the other, I do feel kind of... I dunno, I don't think there's a word for it, but it's like very understated but chronic dissatisfaction and guilt over myself in general, I guess. Even though I do feel like I'm heading in a very positive direction? Idk.

I'll say "indescribable," because then I get to use a shiny new Nathan mood icon. Yeah. >>;;;;;

..................speaking of which.............................. .................NO ERIN YOU ARE NOT GOING INTO THAT RIGHT NOW ESPECIALLY BECAUSE THEN YOU NEED TO QUALIFY WHAT YOU DO AND DO NOT KNOW AND WHETHER OR NOT YOU'RE CATCHING UP WITH THIS FUCKING PERSONAL HELL ON EARTH AND GODDAMMIT YOU'RE STARTING ALREADY. ERIN. STOP. NOW. NEED TO GET INTO BED. GET INTO BED. ERIN.

And for once, I listen.

Oh, also, I'm on a huge E.S. Posthumus kick right now. tinted_glass is so my music soulmate. <33333

SOMEONE TELL ME JUST ONE THING TO ASSUAGE/CONFIRM MY INTENSE PARANOIA EVEN THOUGH I HAVE WATCHED LIKE NONE OF VOLUME 4 BUT I HAD THIS SAME GUT FEELING ABOUT S2 AND AND AND YEAH

DOES NATHAN DIE?????

y/n please. no details. :<

Depending on the answer, I'll be catching up with Court sometime soon god help me.

HI, GUYS.

THINGS ARE GOOD.

Nearing the end of spring break, buuuuuuut I am ahead of Court in apps (even though I need to read way more and I'm also so so so behind on posts everywhere ahkajshfdkasjhfkajhsfka BUT) and I've been drawing more! 8D Some of this is thanks to the fact that I'm being SWIFTLY PULLED BACK INTO FMA FANGIRLING, and the fact that loreamara finally posted the first chunk of her Hughes/Roy homunculus fic that I feel practically like a godmother to at this point is only helping me along into this, d'aaaawww MAI FMA BOYYYZ. <333

Of course, MY NATHAN HEROES LOVE CANNOT BE VANQUISHED YET, as proven by this new moodtheme that laverinth oh-so-thoughtfullycruelly alerted me to. :( I COULD NOT RESIST.

Also, loreamara set up a personal oekaki board for me, eeeeeeee. <3333 8DDD WILL HELP WITH RANDOM DOODLING. Also, got my passport stuff turned in annnnd I got like an hour of sleep last night and then napped. D8 I keep on wanting to do things and losing time and then realizing it's way too early in the morning when I can finally work on stuff with Court and jshfkajshfk T___T.... anyway, speaking of which, I should sleep now XD

Also, this FMA: Brotherhood opening is officially my fourth most-played song on iTunes. I have had the same iTunes library since around 2003. .......Man. :(