I CHANGED MY LAYOUT. Well, not really – just the header and the colors. And the original layout isn't even my making so. Um. Yeah. I'm lazy.

But it does have Nathan on it, so. That's cool. :)

SPEAKING OF NATHAN OGOD HEROES TOMORROW. sldhaksjfasfasf Although some vague spoiler synopsis sentence has killed much of my expectation for What I Want More Than the Second Coming of Christ, I WILL STILL HOPE. BECAUSE I AM A MASOCHIST APPARENTLY AND THIS SHOW CONTINUES TO BE MY READILY ABUSIVE BOYFRIEND.

but no seriously i can't physically stop hoping for this ;; fuckfuckfuck

BUT EITHER WAY I am excited despite all reason and the fact that the rest of me is full of anxiety. D8 Baw, self. Baw.

In other news, holy shit I need to get letters of rec and the rest of my LMU application together and study/read for a Latin America History quiz on Tuesday auuuuggghh faaaaaaaaack.

BUT HIGHER PRIORITY THAN THAT IS POSTAPOCA CROSSOVER NATHAN POST TO SAM. TRUFAX.
...oh jesus I am so gay for it kfjhkforiuoaska

Bahhhh I feel unproductive even when I am being productive.

I'm trying to get up really early so I can talk to Court in the morning (get up super early instead of staying up super late) and also because I'm way better at being on time to class when I wake up way ahead of schedule. The downside to this is, of course, that I can't stay up as late and if I don't properly manage my time, I feel like I've wasted a whole day.

Still, today, I woke up after only like 2 1/2 hours of sleep, did my Creative Writing assignment no sweat, talked to Court, got showered, got dressed, was able to get to class on time by taking the bus (GASP), went to my classes, wrote out some more of sweet, merciful Heroes headcanon oh nathan's lord in heaven a previously abandoned Peter/Adam DarkFuture fic (that I might actually be able to post publicly if I ever finish it, yay!) during said useless Creative Writing class (my prof spent like five minutes singing. I am not joking) and then spent time in my new haven of the SMC library and updated my Schoolhouse scheduling program and worked out my new schedule for catch-up reading and did some of that reading, which I'd been putting off, and once I have a foot in the door, it's much easier for me to complete a task than it is to get up and start it, so... that's good!

So all in all, I feel like I've been productive, but then I think back to apps and how I really need to get my ass in gear on reading them and how we're making people wait so long, and I also think how I was in the library for like four and a half hours and I should have been able to get more done, and just how I have such a horrible sense for time and time management and.... I don't know, I just feel like it takes me so much more time to do things than it should. ;; Even when I'm not actively procrastinating or anything! And then I get home and it's time to sleep again if I want to get up early. Auggghh. Which is what I need to do now. This also all might have to do with my issues with getting to my damn Anthro class on time or even getting to it at all and I hope I can pull a B from the class, at least, and it's ironic since the prof is great and a hilarious lecturer, but... augh, long story, but anyway, I seem to be fixing those problems now. ::Crosses fingers.::

So on one hand, I don't feel down in the dumps or anything like that and I think I'm heading in the right direction for my internal clock's sake, but on the other, I do feel kind of... I dunno, I don't think there's a word for it, but it's like very understated but chronic dissatisfaction and guilt over myself in general, I guess. Even though I do feel like I'm heading in a very positive direction? Idk.

I'll say "indescribable," because then I get to use a shiny new Nathan mood icon. Yeah. >>;;;;;

..................speaking of which.............................. .................NO ERIN YOU ARE NOT GOING INTO THAT RIGHT NOW ESPECIALLY BECAUSE THEN YOU NEED TO QUALIFY WHAT YOU DO AND DO NOT KNOW AND WHETHER OR NOT YOU'RE CATCHING UP WITH THIS FUCKING PERSONAL HELL ON EARTH AND GODDAMMIT YOU'RE STARTING ALREADY. ERIN. STOP. NOW. NEED TO GET INTO BED. GET INTO BED. ERIN.

And for once, I listen.

Oh, also, I'm on a huge E.S. Posthumus kick right now. tinted_glass is so my music soulmate. <33333

Pirated Downloaded Illustrator CS4 and played around with it, but for the same reasons that I've never used it before, it confuses me so much and skfhaksjafa the following masterpiece is the most I was able to churn out of it.

( THE EPIC TALE OF DARKFUTURE )

also holy shit whyyyyyyy am I still up

Been kind of lively lately with.... life! Or something.

My dad is leaving his job as director of Environmental and Public Works in the middle of March, which is really weird considering he's been working for the City of Santa Monica for 25 years. He's been having big and small parties thrown for him by his bosses/co-workers/employees these past couple of weeks, the last of which was a big bash at this shi-shi restaurant where he got some really nice gifts and really nice speeches. To give some perspective: my dad's a pretty big environmentalist and has spent most of those 25 years working to get the city to change things to help lessen its environmental impact on the ocean and air. And though, as one of the speakers jokingly pointed out, he drives a very gas-efficient Ford Mustang and plays the very environmental sport of golf, he really has worked long and hard to achieve that goal, and even now, is moving to a new job with an environmentalist, non-profit organization. The downside is he's going to have to commute to Irvine, but his new employers are paying him extra to cover the cost of a natural gas car that he can use to breeze through the car pool lane (hopefully). In any case, I'm proud of him, though it's still weird he won't be working there anymore.

( Rant about SMC parking and workshop stupidity. )

Whatever, I'm just going to have my mom drop me off in the morning from now on and take the bus back.

BUT HAPPIER THINGS: On the video game front, I've been playing lots of Pokémon and I beat the Elite Four and the Champion on my first try! YAAAAY! Time for the Pal Park and filling up the National Dex, which is.... tough considering I don't have any GBA Pokémon games. But my brother does. So I guess I'll steal that.

ALSO

BRAWL MIDNIGHT RELEASE
TONIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT and I hope to god they DID change my pre-order to Brawl instead of Galaxy. >:[ ....OKAY CALLED THEM and they did. AWESOME.

OH and got ahold of Max and we've caught up on Supernatural and she's watched more Heroes.

( Her reactions! Spoilers for most recent Spn episodes and towards the end of Heroes S1. )

As far as other Heroes things, I need to work on the meme that cacodaemonia put up. And on the damned front, I AM SO SO SAD THAT roseisrain DROPPED CLAIRE BUT I AM ALSO SO SO HAPPY THAT chaneystarr WILL BE APPING HER! EEEEEEE!!! <3333

And. I need to work on my Sylar app. >:)

....AND CAN THERE BE ANY MORE TAGS ON THIS ENTRY JESUS.

Went flying with Andrew last night. LA lights at night are gorgeous. <3 And then we got Ben & Jerry's and watched some Sunny, which we'll hopefully continue with tonight as we wait for Brawl. :D

...APPARENTLY THERE CAN BE MORE TAGS.

Ganked from burningvigor and whoever else I saw use it on my flist. <3

1) Make a list of 10 characters.
2) Assign each character a number.
3) Without telling anyone who's on the list or the character's assigned number, get questions from your flist about what they'd like to know about them.
IE: "If 3 and 4 were trapped in a cave together with only a blanket and a toothpick, what would they do?" (The more random the better!)
4) Post the answers and who was who on the list.

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Also, I had a fucking CREEPY-COOL really sad dream last night. It was like... a Heroes/House crossover in a Spn universe (AND SOMEHOW, NATHAN AND DEAN WERE NOWHERE TO BE FOUND IN IT WTF though Matt was like the main dude. <333)

( Me telling Court about it. )

85 words

AND I TYPE WITH TWO FINGERS, BITCHES.

In other news, read lotsa apps tonight, woo. 8D And um... Dark Future keeps making me want to draw things. Like Deeeeeaaaan and Claire and Peter and Nathan and Adam and EVIL SAM (fucking FINALLY motivated to draw some REAL LIFE PEOPLE) and I really need to get back into figure drawing after I took that break for my sanity. D8 Especially need to before I go to SMC in the spring, because I am going to SMC in the spring, HALLELUJAH. FINALLY all enrolled in my classes and everything: Gonna be taking a time management/organizational skills workshop through the Learning Disabilities program that will hopefully, uh, keep me on task and ease the transition from NOTHING to school again, then English 2, Contemporary Political Thought, and Linguistic Anthropology. Wanted to start getting my math transfer requirement out of the way, but I'm not sure what I'm already getting credit for until my AP scores get to the admissions office and same thing with my science and government credits and... stuff. So instead I'm filling up other requirements from the list my counselor gave me and um... yeah! As jarring as having to do real schoolwork again is going to be for me, I'm excited to start school again because, hey, it's something non-online to keep me busy, and it's good for my morale. Plus, I've been kinda starting to feel like my brain is rotting. Still have a month of free time before then, though, so um... gotta take advantage of that. 8D;

So, speaking of keeping myself busy and taking advantage of free time, I have to:

- READ DEM APPS and do e-mails
- POST GODDAMMIT :(
- No, stop working on that Sylar app. Seriously, stop and POST.
- Do chapter 2 (3&4, technically?) of djinnfic (aka The Middle Mile!)
- Brainstorm and plan out the actual Heroes/Spn crossover fic with Court once she actually gets some free time
- Pick at Dean!vampire fic and console myself by thinking that yeah, everyone and their mother has done it, but this one shall be mine
- Pick a Nathan fic idea to work on. Burnt!Nathan or MPD!Nathan or... Dark Future spinoff. Or something. ANYTHING.
- DO NOT PICK UP THAT DS AND WASTE FOUR HOURS ON POKÉMON AGAIN
- OKAY, TRIALS & TRIBULATIONS IS SOMEWHAT MORE ACCEPTABLE
- BEAT GUITAR HERO III SOMEHOW??? GOD DAMN YOU METALLICA

Also, Re: Icon: Bless you, Gilmore Girls, even though I never watched you and am still not really particularly interested to. :X

Man, haven't updated in like... almost two weeks. A LOT FOR ME. It's of course because Court's been in town and we hung out and stuff, but now she's back at UCSB, so now I'll probably hang out some more with Andrew and Sabrina but actually have time to, you know, work on apps. 8D; I have a few sure rejections I need to send, and I want to get those done with because I hate making people wait for rejections of all things, poor dudes. :/

( Crossover rambling. DOES IT EVER END? )

MEANWHILE, MY MOM IS TOTALLY FUCKING HOOKED ON HEROES. LIKE. She's already watched the whole series and she RE-WATCHED more than half of s1 today on her own while she did chores and stuff WTTFFFFFF. She's seen both Spn AND Heroes now, so uh, IT MAKES TALKING TO COURT ON THE PHONE A LITTLE AWKWARD, ESPECIALLY WHEN SLASH IS INVOLVED. Still, it's nice to share stuff with parents. IDUNNO.

Iiiiiiii need to sleep. I want to make a Winchesters&Petrellis Heroes/Spn crossover icon sometime. Hmmnnnnnnnnnnn.

Also, Guitar Hero has killed my DDR exercise quite utterly. D: NEED TO CHANGE THAT SOMETIME. OH OH OH and I started playing Pokémon Diamond again. 8D Should put my number thing up sometime so I can make some trade/battle buddies outta youz guys. <3

WOO, new Supernatural episode tonight! :DDDD FIRST TIME POSTING ONE OF THESE FOR IT. <3

( Vague thoughts! No real spoilers, but cut anyway. )

In other news, blah blah crossover blah blah. 8D COURT IS IN TOWN NOW AND WE ARE HANGING OUT, SO WE TALK MUCH.

AND JSFHGALKFJH SATURDAY. HEROES ACTORS. OMFG.

....sflsdjf again, I ask how my friends got me bad into these series. I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T CARE. <3

Still practicing realistic-ish people and still PUMPED about that crossover's dark future.

( Badass!Peter, Heroes )

And to think, I went from demanding Court app Grimmjow instead of Peter to... THIS. DDD:

Was so pumped over possible crossover stuff that I did photoshop doodle... thing.

( Evil!Sam & vague Supernatural SPOILERS in explanation. )

In other news, I downloaded all the tracks used in Supernatural off an awesome site. WOO.

As Court explained in her most recent entry, a random coincidence thanks to Andrew inviting me to an event involving Patrick Stewart tomorrow (WHICH IS FUCKING BADASS IN AND OF ITSELF) has ended in me finding out about and Court getting us tickets to a whole Heroes thing next Saturday which will have ADRIAN PASDAR Zachary Quinto pretty much all the main character actors besides Hiro's and Claire's. IF I DIDN'T FEEL NEWBISH BEFORE HOLY SHIT DO I FEEL THE POSER RAINING DOWN ON ME NOW D:. But seriously, I saw the little "HEROES" banner on the side of the site layout along with... every actor's name ever, froze, showed Court, and she was all "DUDE I'M GONNA BE IN TOWN AT THAT POINT WE SHOULD GOGOGOGO" and I was like "HO SHIT OKAY" and... so we are. 8D I need to pay her back for my ticket, tho. <3

( Fic and crossover co-writing rambling! No real spoilers. )

Anyway, I should sleep so I can get up at a not-so-ridiculous time and plan out going downtown and stuff with Andrew. FOR THE LOVE OF PICARD. Didn't work on djinnfic tonight (I've been trying to sit down for at least an hour and do what I can on it every night) but I shall tomorrow! (Also need to get back to vampire!Dean sometime. <3)

Overall, my general feeling is: GLEE. AMAZINGLY AWESOME THINGS ABOUND.

So latelatelate last night (technically this morning) I realized HO SHIT I HAVE FIGURE DRAWING TOMORROW/TODAY. D: So I went to bed, got up after four/five hours of sleep annnnd then when I was about to leave I realized I had no cash/proper brand credit card for parking. So I called my mom to see where she keeps her cash stash except she didn't answer and failed to respond to the message I left for over two hours and kjsdfhsl so I missed the last session of my figure drawing class. D: PRETTY PATHETIC, HUH? I NEED TO GET OFF MY ASS and get A JOB (and get over my fear of phones so I can do that ughughugh ;__;) OH WELL.

I made about a bajillion new icons, and by "bajillion" I mean... 8. What can I say, last night's episode was bad ass and (highlight for spoilers) I needed to comfort myself after that ending oh jesus ;___; I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE MY HORRIBLE PARANOID WEEK-LONG PREDICTION WAS COMPLETELY RIGHT whyyyy

SPEAKING OF THE END OF HEROES Court and I are FINALLY beginning to brainstorm our Supernatural/Heroes epic crossover YAAAAAY. We realize pretty much everything we come up with is going to be contradicted by what actually happens when it comes back, but then again, WHO KNOWS WHEN IT'S GOING TO COME BACK, RIGHT? oh man oh man still so excited about being into new and shiny things EVEN IF I'M A NEWB <333

And speaking of NEWB, I should get back to working on the djinnfic. I am determined to be PRODUCTIVEPRODUCTIVE. I hope.

( After-effects of last night's Heroes episode. SPOILERS. )

...COURT HOW DID YOU MANAGE TO GET ME SO INTO A SHOW IN SO LITTLE TIME FKJHAlskf... and I don't even feel the need to yell goddammit at you anymore. ....GODDAMMIT ;[

My Firefox is being really weird--not loading random images and making pages weirdly formatted and stuff. DUNNO WHY, though I'm certainly saddened that with only 6 icons and two new fandoms in my life, I keep on having to delete older ones and rotating in progressively newer ones. ;_; I FEEL LIKE A TRAITOR.

In other news, I'm all caught up with Heroes and I've got Court caught up to the end of S2 of Supernatural. WOOO.

"WHAT?" Some of you may ask. "YOU AND COURT ARE INTO DIFFERENT SHOWS? HOW CAN THIS BE?!"

Shocking, I know, but don't worry; we're still managing to have matching layouts and we're currently co-planning a Heroes/Supernatural crossover of EPIC proportions to right this horrible imbalance in the universe. IN FACT, it's actually made us excited for the upcoming hiatus of both shows, since it'll give us a chance to take all the info we have and turn it into a decently meshed plot. SO EVERYONE WINS.

On the fourth case of PW3. Omg... young... EVERYONE! (ALSO, I HAD TO DELETE TOASTERFACE. ::CRIES::)

I believe that is all. I should sleep soon. D:

Oh my goddddddddddd I had such a fucking AMAZING BADASS DREAM LAST NIGHT

( To save you all from EXCITED HEROES/SUPERNATURAL CAPS AHHHHH. Minor spoilers, but not much.. )

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