MONSTERS
Author: lacidiana
Fandom: Heroes
Pairing: Sylar/Nathan
Genre: Drama/Psych
Words: 2,072
Rating: R; non-consensual sexual content (non-graphic), violence
Spoilers/Notes: Diverging A/U from general S4 events.

Summary: He's not dead, but he'd might as well be.

A/N: This is a fic from early 2010 that I'm dragging out of the archives; I originally planned for it to be longer, but I've eventually accepted it's not going any further and it feels pretty complete as is. Anyway, with so many other WIPs on my plate and the show ended, I figured I'd post this as one last Heroes hurrah!

x-posted: AO3

( He's a slave. )

OH MY GOD

WHAT

THIS ERIN PERSON IS POSTING TO LJ

WHAT

...

HELLO, ALL! God, it's been nearly half a year since I've posted, hasn't it? Partly because I have been LEGITIMATELY BUSY WITH... LIFE THINGS (school, writing, full-time internship, south america vacation, comic con, concert, what have you), and partly because I have been illegitimately busy with... fandom things.

Bottom line, these are my fandoms rn:

- Life on Mars
- Doctor Who
- Top Gear
- Life on Mars
- Life on Mars
- SAM TYLER AND GENE HUNT GETTING IT ON VIOLENTLY oh wait same show

FFFFFFFUCK YOU BBC I held out so long on anglophiling, man. So bloody long. And yes, Top Gear is a fandom. Don't. even. talk. to me okay this is my life now.

But yeah. Life on Mars. MAN I REMEMBER when people on my f-list were ranting about it when it first came out, you know, FIVE YEARS AGO, and I was like WHAT IS THIS WEIRD THING WITH THAT SQUISHY-FACED MASTER GUY AND AN OLD CAR LOL IT LOOKS DUMB

and now

now sam tyler is my puppycakes and I want to cuddle him to sleep every night

uhhh MAN MY INCOHERENCY HASN'T GOTTEN MUCH BETTER, HAS IT? Anyhoo, I've been sadly behind on RP things, but I've been good about writing! I'm uh kind of completely obsessed with the whole Sam!Master concept right now so I have about. 8300 words of that. so far. and lots of pages of planning sfjkhaksfhja it is my baby project right now. IT IS THE SEXIEST IDEA EVER OK and although there are about a million fics written for it, I've only found one that fully Meets My Needs. So. Clearly, I must take matters into my own hands. :|a

AND ALSO YES. Internship. Suffice to say that between the last entry and now, I interned for several months at a comic book company and for this summer, I've interned at a cable television network and edited web clips for them WHICH HAS ALL BEEN VERY AMAZING AND EXCITING and maybe I'll go into more detail in an f-locked post. 8D

Man. LJ-posting. This is making me horribly nostalgic and weepy and NO MORE PAID ACCOUNT LOOK AT MY SAD SIX LITTLE ICONS.

Oh right and Dean/Castiel. Supernatural is the kingpin of fandoms that stick in your brain and I am so bad for Dean/Cas right now and forever skjfhajksfa. SCREAM I SAW THEM AT COMIC CON. I SAW THEM I SAW THEM I PREVIOUSLY THOUGHT JENSEN ACKLES WAS A MYTHICAL UNICORN OF BEAUTY BUT HE ACTUALLY EXISTS THIS IS AMAZING TO ME

....and OH GOD NATHAN MOOD ICON. NATHAN. I STILL LU. SOBBBBB heroes is still a gaping wound only bandaged by new beautiful wonderfulness.

I sound drugged up BYE GUYS

wow I haven't posted to my LJ in ages but finally... FINALLY, I found something worth posting.

WHY. GOD. WHY.

seriously I am. I expected. so bad but this. is just. .....sob.

UHHH IN OTHER NEWS. MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. UM. Basically, just started going back to school at LMU, still super into Heroes despite my soul hurting and also... sort of... GETTING INTO DOCTOR WHO? Been watching a ton of it and I kind of want to musebox Ten somewhere even though I feel like a supaposer. ;A; ALSO I recently reworked my resume and submitted it for an internship I was v. interested in and... THEY GOT BACK TO ME THE NEXT DAY? WOOHOO. I feel like an idiot since they called in the morning and I didn't wake up until... 4, so when I called them back the day was already over even though they'd said today would be ideal for an interview so. Sob. Hope I didn't just screw myself over. D8 They said they'd call back this week to schedule an interview for next week but. YOU NEVER KNOW. I'll definitely be following up on this. :|a ...and I also hope I didn't come off as an idiot over the phone. Ggghhhhdkfjs ...although on the bright side, the extra time will give me a chance to get some... decent interview clothes, of which I recently realized I have none. :|

ANYWAY YES. LJ POST. CAN CHOOSE A MOOD AGAIN. AND DO THINGS. AAAAA. Also, right, another update: apped BUZZ LIGHTYEAR to damned. And got in. nest will be my Woody. This is going to be glorious.

BUT FIRST I need to post to Elle&L and, you know, prove I can multitask and stuff. ...which I think time has proven I can't BUT YOU NEVER KNOW UNLESS YOU WORK ON IT. OR something. I am incoherent.

....HI, EVERYONE. 8D

DAYMAN - HEROES SILLINESS
(Video from Heroes, Audio from It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia.)
Original: Nightman - Sylar/Mohinder

FINALLY. THIS THING HAD BEEN LIKE. TWO CLIPS AWAY FROM COMPLETION FOR LIKE A YEAR. KUIUHSFK SO YEAH FINALLY GOT THAT DONE. WOOOOO. WOW I AM RIDICULOUS EWIUHKAJ ALSO YAY NON-PLURK. /fistpump!

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In larger (read: damned-related) news, HOLY SHIT SYLAR GOT M-U HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT did I mention this before WELL WHATEVER HE JUST GOT FUCKING SHAPESHIFTING OVER HERE AND HE'S ABOUT TO GET TORTURED AND ALSO WE GOT A CLAIRE AND IUYRKAJHLKAHFKJHKA OMGGGG this is of course on top of Heroes cancellation life is so good, guys. ;; ...Well actually, I was pretty sick yesterday but I'm feeling better now so. Yes. AAAAaaaaaaa. \o/

also I so might have to fill this prompt if no one else does because wow yes that arc and its potential still owns me sifhaksljhfakl

Wow I have not used my LJ in forever but GODDAMN I HAVE TO USE IT TONIGHT

HEROES IS CANCELED IT'S CANCELED IT'S FINALLY CANCELED

FUCK THAT THERE WILL BE A TWO-HOUR SPECIAL THAT WILL DRIVE THE STAKE OF OOC CHARACTERIZATION DECISIVELY DEEPER INTO THE HEART OF EVERYTHING ONCE-GOOD IN THIS WORLD BUT OH MY GOD SOON I WILL BE FREE

FREE

FREE

...well not really I'm still going to bitch and whine and write fic and daydream and be obsessed most likely kjsfhak dammit

BUT STILL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD

also I need to make a resolution to use this thing more often FUCK YOU PLURK ADDICTION >8(

ALSO FINISH THAT ONE SYLAR/NATHAN FIC

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ALSO, CROSSING FINGERS FOR HEROES KINKMEME wow self

LOOK AT ME USE LIVEJOURNAL SINCE PLURK IS DOWN \o/ murasaki_kaze I KEPT MY WORD.
SORT OF.

Anyway, I meant to get up early today but I think I literally turned my alarm off because my brain couldn't compute that yeah, I did need to get up early today. At least that's better than not having remembered turning off my alarm at all, which has happened to me before. 8( Oh well; my registration date's on Monday, so if I go in early then, I should be okay?

Also should register with the Disabilities Office, see if I can get priority registration in the future or anything else. >>

IN OTHER NEWS Thursday is Show Day, which means ( Supernatural vague spoilers ) and ( Fringe vague spoilers ) also I (not seriously) considered how apping Fringe!Peter would make there be THREE LANDEL'S PETERS LOL and more seriously considered apping Walter as a doctor, since come on, that'd be fantastic. TOO BAD I'M NOT RESPONSIBLE ENOUGH. T_T

Also, holy shit do I need to catch up with House I HAVE NOT SEEN ANY NEW EPISODES SINCE THE MENTAL HOSPITAL ONE OR MAYBE THE ONE AFTER. YEAH. SHIT. I keep on shielding my eyes/muting whenever the commericals come on during my Fringe DVR. T___T I'm actually pretty damn unspoiled so LET'S KEEP IT THAT WAY until Court comes home and we can marathon like it's 2005~

Annnnd I've been fairly good with posting lately! Which means I'm about to go sylarpost. AND THEN READ APPLICATIONS. And then... maybe I should head over to school and edit, although... goddammit I need to find my hard drive's power cord ;; KIND OF IMPORTANT.

But yes. YAY, LJ POST~ Oh and. My new headphones. They are beautiful. 8D ALSO FINALLY HAVE CASTIEL ICONS WOOOO

AND. THANKS TO tinted_glass GOING TO A BSB CONCERT WITH HER ON JUNE 26 AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

WHY DO I DECIDE TO LJ POST LIKE WAY IN THE MORNING WHEN I NEED TO SLEEP. I guess I've just missed you, LJ, even with all your retardation. Plurk's been stealing me away from you with its easy posts and quick replies, but at least I know you don't punish me for leaving you for weeks at a time. ;;

Anyway, was just browsing through my Documents folder and LOL OH WOW, SELF. CAN'T TELL WHERE YOUR PRIORITIES LIE AT ALL.

now go actually finish some of those so you can stop CONSTANTLY SADFACING at ninth_wonders. 8(

Oh god

Oh god please Damned people respond so I can do Sylar posts

and try not to

cry

in pain

forever

very related: I SUSPECT IT IS MATT'S POWER THAT GIVES HIM A MENTAL BLOCK TO THE CONTAGIOUS HEROES-VERSE VIRUS OF INSANITY.

Former Heroes star Adrian Pasdar arrested for DUI.

GODDAMMIT. OH GODDAMMIT.

ADRIAN YOU WERE LIKE THE ONLY PART OF THIS MASOCHISTIC OBSESSION I COULD CONSISTENTLY TRUST TO NOT DO ME HARM AND NOW YOU LET ME DOWN TOO. DRUNK DRIVING? SHIT IS NOT OKAY.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFAAAAAACK

In other news, thanks so much to everyone who posted to my other entry – the support really meant a lot to me, even if, for the reasons I mentioned in that post, it's difficult for me to sit down and reply to everyone. ;; ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ (Though to clarify and so people aren't alarmed, my bank account being in the negative and me having to use credit cards are two completely unrelated issues. XD;;; I'm only like... nine bucks in debt. Still need to take care of that shit, though.)

Also, turns out my mom had already paid for the gas and electric. .......and then suddenly my water stopped working properly. WHY? I DO NOT KNOW. I HAVE TO PRACTICALLY TAKE SPONGE BATHS WITH MY LITTLE TRICKLE FROM THE SHOWER HEAD. DAD PLEASE FIX IT

Annnnnnd I need to shift change and sleep because I'm already only gonna get like four hours. ;;

( Heroes 515 a.k.a. THEY OWED ME THAT SHIT )

Also, first day at LMU tomorrow. Ahhhhhhh. EXCITED BUT ANXIOUS.

( BUT BEFORE TALKING... (Heroes 513-514 spoilers) )

Also, Max came over and was telling me about some random dumb movie she'd watched, and I looked it up on IMDB on a whim and happened to get the page for the original 1998 version of the movie instead of the 2009 one.

Guys. How did that. The chances of. What. ......What.

PHEW, these last few of weeks have been pretty crazy. First, going up to Tahoe, then, family holiday stuff, then, hanging out for a few days with the usual gang, then, nest coming into town and hanging out with burningvigor and me and doing touristy things, then, adding that to hanging out with wyna_hiros and famira, and watching them go after each other in Super Mario Wii with psychopathic precision... crazytiems, man.

Then, yesterday, I drove Court back up to Santa Barbara and Jansen came with – WE HAD SOME TROUBLE FINDING OUR WAY due mainly to me rambling about fandom crap way too enthusiastically at the wheel, BUT IT WAS OKAY IN THE END. We got Freebirds and ice cream and then Jansen and I headed back to my place and we talked the night aawaaaayyyyy~ Then, I took her to the airport this morning. :(((( And went to get the H1N1 shot, per my mom's orders.

ANYWAY, now I am home and alone and chillaxing. SORRY FOR NOT REPLYING TO ANYONE ON THE SYLAR USERNAME THING and jesus christ do I need to do posts. I am assuaged only by the fact that it was his roomie who was distracting me. :>

Right, so I also found out famira lives literally a mile from my house. GODDAMN YOU WE NEED TO MAKE THIS HANGING OUT THING REGULAR /SHAKEFIST

...Heroes tonight. I almost managed to block it out. /)_(\

Thanks to laverinth's generosity, I have shiny new Sylar username opportunities. 8DDD

SO. HERE IS A POLL.

[Poll #1499268]

ALSO Tahoe is fun and there is like no one here and I think Court and I will now go and play KHII. ♥

VICTOLY!!!!!

Got into LMU. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BITCHES

good thing too, since I ended up being too lazy to apply anywhere else :<

Also, my nose has been running like hell and I had moar alarm fail today. Gj, self.

Now, will try to do POSTS. I am so goddamn amused by the grouping and circumstances of my current thread considering recent events in the show dafhaohfklas

( 4x12: The Fifth Stage )

ON A LIGHTER NOTE I totally got some amazing pointers in this episode for how to handle Sylar in certain damned situations aisufhaksfhsahahahaaaaaaaa

( Upcoming Heroes spoilers. )

Also, like... I've recently realized that regardless of anything that happens in this current arc of Heroes or how it's executed, suddenly, most of the fics for my OTP in Heroes-dom are all centered around my favorite themes ever, so I can like go to the newsletter and basically be guaranteed a fic that caters to specific indulgences that I previously could hardly ever satisfy, let alone for characters I cared about. THIS IS JUST.....SO NEW AND INCREDIBLE FOR ME

Also, yesterday I had to have my 20-page script read in my screenwriting class and I think it went over pretty well! \o/ Got some really useful concrit from my professor, who seemed to overall really like it, and when the people who'd read the parts handed it back to me they were all complimenting me on it hfaisufla YAY. It really meant a lot to me since I'd actually ended up going with an idea that had been cooking in my head for a while since that's the pitch that my group from a few weeks before had liked the most.

HOWEVER the best part is how, when I got back my anonymous feedback from the other students, one of the responses read: "Was the main character gay? Was the other guy his lover?" .........IUDIHADKLDA I PRETTY MUCH DIED ON THE SPOT GUYS I SUCCESSFULLY PULLED OFF SLASH SUBTEXT FUCK YES.

Also I totally just conked out last night around 11 or 12 and then woke up again around 4 really thirsty and then stayed up an hour or so and then fell asleep again. And now I am sore. D8

HOLY SHIT NEED TO GET GOING TO CLASS /ZOOM

..........................................STILL FREAKING OUT

NEED TO DO POSTS

SHIT

ALSO GOT AN A ON MY LATIN AM. HISTORY ESSAY I TURNED IN A BILLION YEARS AGO WHICH I WAS SURE WAS C MATERIAL SO THAT'S COOL

( 4x11 Thanksgiving a.k.a. oh. my. god. )

I still can't believe how incredibly specifically the circumstances of this arc pander to me. It's just... fucking insane. Fucking insane.

Also, both my computers are being royal bitches to me and Safari refuses to work. Again. And Firefox spinning-rainbows me into oblivion whenever I try to like put two words into a web form a.k.a. LJ comment skjhfaks T____T

ALSO NEED TO MAKE THOSE CHANGES TO MY SCRIPT AND PRINT STUFF. AND TRY NOT TO DIE OF CONTINUING FANGASMING. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

And goddammit I wanted to do posts tonight but I'm already past my bedtime and fkjdhfkdhjsk fuck ;;

I JUST

IF I TRY TO TYPE ABOUT THAT EPISODE IT WILL JUST END UP LIKE OH FUCK I'M DOING IT

( AHHHHHHHHHHHHH aka spoilers for 4x10: Brother's Keeper )

And that is why Erin is doomed to never finish her already-late script assignment. And to also never have a boyfriend.

Also? I am going to make so many icons that I will possibly crash my hard drive.

I am

going

to watch

the end

of that episode

four. billion. times.