Today was pretty damn sweet. Except for the fact that it epitomized how much of a fucking spoiled child brat I am.

I should be happy but I'm pretty ashamed in retrospect. Augh. Why are my parents so nice? And why do I get to be so lucky and living so overtly comfortably when people are starving in most parts of the world?

I should just... enjoy my good fortune and not be self-servingly self-deprecating about it. Self. Selfselfselfself. The best thing is to make use of things and make something of myself, right? I sort of suggested it in the first place, more as a musing than anything else... and then my opportunistic mind went crazy and before I knew it BAM things actually made a certain amount of sense and my mom thought so too and and and ._. I don't deserve these material items. I'm such a bad person.

Moving on.

So I got to skip school and take stupid tests at Sylvan Learning instead. Yes, Sylvan Learning.  Laugh all you want. See, I'm doing it for you: HA. HA HA HA. I was originally gonna come back at lunch but... I realized that we'd probably be doing close to nothing in Japanese, and I actually forgot my backpack at the Sylvan place, (which I went back to later anyway), so... that... didn't really happen.

Ditching with parent supervision is rather weird.

I have to make up my math standardized testing now. Ouch. (I love how they made me take one of those STUPID CAT6 tests for reading comprehension... and after viewing my scores, decided not to give me the vocab section. XD XD XD)

So then I go back to the learning center thingamajig and get my history stuff in order for the AP tomorrow. I've actually been studying... the guy is nice, and his suggestions did help.... I should probably just accept the fact that without adult crutches and a lot of money, my work ethics amount to nil.

One thing that I am proud of.

So yeah. Back to the main subject. Due to logic that I can't fully understand but my parents seem to reason through, (BOTH of them wtf), I am now part of the iCult.

.......Shit. I'm so ashamed. I at least paid for the firewire cable, but... fuck.

::Crawls off to a corner to perpetuate stupid upper middle-class angst.::

Wealth is bittersweet, especially when you're selfish enough to accept it.

EDIT: Ahhhh, hell, this is stupid. I should just be glad that my parents are willing to give me that much and go danceshit in the hallway or something. I just would like to make a resolution right NOW that I NEED to also use it to store school work and calendar dates and reminders and such with the music only as an incentive, or else I'm a miserable failure.

The idea of turning all my schoolwork in general to digital is pretty hot, though.